May 24
DD had her injection/s, she's resting and waiting for results, DH is still working for CUSD but no longer classified as a driver and has lost 12 yrs seniority, he is shifting more paperwork and driving so there is no schedule really. Thankful he has a job with the budget cuts. I just certified Peer Support advocate through Amputee Coalition of America and begun speaking on behalf of CAF. Using Flovent is helping the breathing so hope to hit the track again soon once weather clears. more soon Keep the Faith

May
I've been training playing and working. I've got two clinics coming up and ACA training to enable me to do what I'm working towards. Sharing what I've learned and encouraging others. I felt it best to not attend the Triathlon today as our daughter's back has her in such a state that leaving her isn't an option. Besides, she is my support crew at these events and It's just not the same without her sleeping in the car next to me on the way to the start line. :)  There will be others. The job cuts in the county have hit close to home and there is much contention now that the pink slips have gone out at DH job. It's tight everywhere with the cost of living skyrocketing. Keep your head about you and remember, no matter how big the discount, if you really don't need it you didn't save a penny!

Feb 4 2008
Ok, it was wet yesterday. Not just a little rain but downpour through out the entire 1/2 marathon bike ride I did ! Wind gusts to 35mph and we were along the coast so it was pretty rough. I had rain gear which helped to a point but eventually, I was soaked. I rode my fastest time of 1:19:00 in the mess and had a blast despite the conditions. I'm waiting for the photos to be posted at brightshots. One thing I must remember is to put my timing chip on my shoe before I head to the course start. ;D I forgot mine in the truck, but I know my time when I came in as I asked the lady who gave me my medal for finishing. Cool medals too ! wood surfboard with metal emblem attached. I wasn't sore just cold really. Found  new gizmo that will assist my arms with riding check out zglove.com I can see a LOT of uses for these things besides sports. great for arm fatigue and they make them for legs too :)  Im off to train, I've got my first full marathon coming up and I want to be ready :)  bless

Jan 19
In loving Memory of Claudette D Panzeca
E=mc2

Jan 9
Happy New Year and what a month ! Travel, illness, holiday stress and celebrations all came into play this year. My computer lost a lot of files and has been doing rebuild and rescue. New plans for the new year are in order. I completed the 1/2 marathon and was so glad to cross the finish line ! It was wet, cold and getting a flat was a hassle as the handbikes went first and I waited for the main field of runners to pass before I rejoined them. Shooting the hills is always fun but the mud in my face left a bit to be desired. LOL  I'm working out most days and keeping busy with assisting in the planning committee for a 5/10k fun run. This past year has brought much change and challenge and am thankful for rising to meet each one. DD is national/state certified and making strides by leaps and bounds. DH is still shaking out the cobwebs from the newly created job position entering his 2nd year as lead. DDog has learned that if she chases ducks she has a better chance at a long chase as it takes them longer to get off the ground :) LOL she had a blast on our last vacation chasing the ducks around the ponds ! Silly but lovable! Next event is Super bowl Sunday and look forward to sharing the road to raise money for Run for Mobility*. Keep the Faith :)  bless

Dec 9
I got nailed hard by allergies and was not able to participate in the Triathlon. Allergies forced me to withdraw and return home in the wee early morning hours on Sunday. The stomach pain is abating and Ive signed up for another 1/2 marathon. The weather has been wild and today it was so clear that San Clemente Island was visible without the inversion layer that often accompanies mild off shore winds. I am keeping everyone in thought and prayer through this difficult time while troops are deployed far from home. Time to rest and recoup. more soon ... bless

Nov 11
We headed for the event at 4:40 am and chatted and laughed all the way to Coronado and the starting line for the Silver Strand Half Marathon. I completed a 1/2 marathon hand bike ride with Beth, and Sachi, Brandy, Andrea and Kathy did the run. DD and DH had auto detail and bags because this was a one way race down Hwy 75. They blocked the road south for the entire route. It was great :) It started out very cold and the bike path is nothing like the road. More hills to crest and longer pulls. I completed in 1:30.00 My speed was down a bit but my goal was to ride and have fun. That I did and I completed. I'm ready to do it again and have plenty of training ahead of me as I prepare for my first mini triathlon. The goal has been reached and a new one set. I'm having a blast and meeting people. Life is Sweet :) Web shots link for pictures above. bless

Oct 28
Due to the fires and the loss many have painfully experienced through out the San Diego county, the CAF event staff have arrived at the difficult decision to cancel the events planned for this weekend in La Jolla. The fundraising is on going and been extended to Nov 14. Much of the mail has been delayed and many are still in a state of shock as CAF offices and warehouse suffered a fire not 3 weeks ago themselves and now the entire southern portion of the state has been affected in some way by the recent week long firestorms.  I'm continuing  training as I have a 1/2 marathon ride in two weeks time. I'm not sure of the details just yet but CAF will have some kind of follow up and are by no means out of the race. for more info www.challengedathletes.org 

Oct 22
Yesterday the Pier Gang tried to swim the course in La Jolla but the surf was too strong. We waited and rechecked but it just was too risky to enter. The winds continued to pick up and on the way home we passed through a valley that the temp jumped to 81 degrees and was blowing thick amount of sand. The freaky part was after 15 mins we were through the mess and the temp dropped 14 degrees  and visibility was clear as a bell !! We opted to head home and swim to seal rock but that didn't work out either. I tried twice to enter the surf but it was too much and my stump got smacked when my fin was pulled off. All is well,  and none of us made it past the surf line !  By the time we got back from attempting the Seal Rock swim, the winds had increased in our area and we decided we better head home. I've been picked up by another team to do the wheelie hand bike course which is 8.2 miles along eh coast of La Jolla... A very busy week ahead and looking forward to the Challenge next Sunday.

Oct 11
Yes, I'm still here :)  Training, in between, taking care of injured/ill family members and keeping things running. I got smacked by a dog and it bent my rim which needs replacing. I've been kayaking, riding, swimming and thinking about sailing. DD passed her national boards and is doing better with PT as ordered, DH is recovered from his emergency surgery and back to work, DDog chases bunnies when able and I'm keeping up and getting new specs today. Clear vision always helps :)  More soon :) promise

July 13
My Sunflowers grown from seeds a friend sent me are starting to bloom :) I rode 13 miles and swam laps 40 mins yesterday and still had energy left ! ok, some. I find out if my test fitting for my socket is today. My socket has been cracked and needed fixing. The crack has been repaired for now. He took fiberglass casting material and wrapped the area needing repair. Thus far, it's holding and fits great. DD has applied for her boards and DH is working his first full summer. Right now he's typing in the data for each of the over 800 routes in the school district. keep the faith and thank a soldier ! bless

July 11
We just got back from a turnaround trip to Az for Auntie's back surgery. The procedure went smoothly and she is home recovering now. The surgeon said all went well and she should have a good recovery. The weather on the other hand was not the best. A heat wave was baking the area in temps of 117 near Prescott !! Friday morning we headed to Flagstaff early to get in a short bike ride while the temps were still low in the high desert. We rode at Lake Mary for 5 miles and in that time the temp went up 12 degrees !! By the time we got to Flagstaff hospital (5 mins from the lake) the clouds had begun moving in and the winds were really picking up. It appears a monsoon had moved in from the Gulf Coast and we were about to get smacked. While we waited for Auntie to come out of surgery, we witnessed heavy lightening, which my stump felt, and rain downpours that had the rain gutters shooting water over 5 ft to the curb with great force as it ran off! When the zingers from the lightening got so strong it was causing cramps in my stump I moved indoors. Then the hail started !! Talk about extremes! We went from 112 coming across the desert floor in Indio, Thurs at 10:30 am to 127 in Cottonwood Az at 3pm. We came back home at night because the heat was just too much, even still the temp at 11:00pm was 113 when we stopped to gas up in Blythe !!  I've been in heat before, but with my prostheses it's a whole different story. I couldn't suck down enough fluids or get enough cool rinses with water to beat the heat. There was no getting comfortable so when we knew Auntie was A OK we headed home. smiles E'

June 28
I'm in training folks so I'm not online much these days. Hand bike 13.5 miles, ocean swim 1/2mile was completed this week in same day. Helping DD along with her injured sciatic nerve and the pool is helping her wonders. Thanks Bruce :)) I give thanks for the decisions and changes I've made and look to continuing to reap the rewards of my labors. The Sunflowers seeds have taken root and are growing swiftly now as they reach for the sun each day. Two of them are going to be huge from looks of it. We are excited and enjoying watching their progress. Thank you Micki for the gift of the seeds :) I'm off for a bone scan and then a dip.  blessings dears

My response to Larry King re: Hilton ordeal or anyone who feels the law does not apply to them
I would like to state that if Paris thinks being locked up for the laws she broke were traumatizing. She ought to try signing papers to have your leg amputated because of injuries sustained in a collision with a drunk driver. Reality check please  Try walking out your front door knowing full well the overall practice by our society to imbibe, and drive and I'm supposed to feel safe?? Talk about PANIC when I open my front door !!    
On one hand, I feel for her plight because what was done in the media and court was a JOKE, on the other hand I don't know whether to fling my prosthetic foot at the TV or throw up !!

May 21
 open to Life as it was meant to be. each breath enjoyed for the mere reason of being able to Inhale.

April 29
The bike is on order and yesterday was the 19th year since this path started. I spoke at a local Amputee Support group about myself and how CAF has helped me. I didnt know it, but a rep was there to tape me. I stepped through a new door that was opened. Time will tell what is to come of it and where it will lead but anew turn has been taken. :) We had lunch out then spent the rest of the day sharing each others company and laughing. I met some lovely people and a couple real characters :) Im ready to go play so I'm off.  blessings

April 18
We are back from a wonderful vacation to the High Desert. This is the first vacation I've not gotten sick and had to stay in the room at some point. Yeah !!  Recharge those batteries :) The body has adjusted being off the recalled med Zelnorm and is working just fine. It appears my small intestine has not only had enough time to heal but is working fine. No stomach attacks or need for meds !! I've received a generous grant from CAF towards the purchase of a hand bike and am currently awaiting delivery :)

Our prayers and thoughts are with ALL the families and students at VT.

March 30
So I've been getting holes filled in my teeth, walking, reading, dealing with new construction at our next door neighbors, and getting ready to see my first California Ironman in Oceanside. I can't wait to get back in the water but the ocean temps have been hard on me this season. I want to thank all those who have supported and encouraged me to open up and share my story. I have been asked by CAF to represent them as a speaker to other amputees !! I'm working on my outline because I don't want to get off track being distracted. My first event is planned for April 28 !!  Yes, what a better way to celebrate being alive then sharing my experiences and how CAF gave me what I needed to further help myself.   We had server problems and had to shut down for a bit but we are up and running at full speed with less problems with the changes. The webcam needs replacement and that too will be addressed soon. Life is Good, Share it !!

blessings dears

Feb 14
Happy Valentine's Day .. 
Did I mention I was taking a break. Filled out application for SDTC 07 and a hand bike. :) onward and upward, bless

Dec 21
The cold water gear works great and we had a wonderful swim this morning. It was clear and crisp with great visibility. We swam the length of the pier and I had no problem finding DH with his brilliant colored wetsuit. Time is near for the holiday celebration and all things are being made ready across the world of believers of one faith or another. No matter what you do or don't practice or believe... I wish you Peace

Dec 17
I know it's been a while but I needed a break in many ways and none of them that would affect my height :) The extra pieces for added warmth have been made and I'll be able to cold weather swim a bit more often now. DD had her last 2 wisdom teeth out and is nearly recovered. DH is working too hard and chasing his tail so to speak. DDog has been dealing with the cold and has a new shirt to wear to keep her a bit warmer on outings. Her stump gets cold quick and we've learned it bothers her. The house is decorated and the tree turned out lovely. We've had 1 neighbor move and another pass away in his driveway. May the Truth shine within your heart every day and bring light to another's life.

Nov 26
I admit, I've been in a funk. Being in such a large accepting, supportive group is a great high but after it was followed by an unexpected low. I've worked through it.  We went to the annual Santa visit here in town but didn't stay. Main street was completely blocked off for a change and added improvement, we decided to leave when we saw that Santa would no longer arrive in his big shiny red fire truck, no, now he would arrive in a carriage drawn by two white horses that looked like something Cinderella or Barbie stepped out of !! It just didn't' work for us... This year is the first time in longer than I can remember I fixed an entire Turkey meal. It wasn't just the holiday but the fact that I was physically able to make the meal without giving out from pain !!! I still had more energy left after two days of prep and cooking. Enough to make sure my neighbor had fresh blueberry muffins to enjoy :)  We're off to play  bless

Nov 22
Ive taken my break and recovered from the Tri swim. It was my first and considering I had such short notice I did swimmingly as far as I'm concerned !! I will be back at it again and with the purpose and intent of reaching my goal of 45 min. That would beat my best time in a pool with two feet :) I'm ready for that next challenge ! We've been preparing our menu for a Thanksgiving dinner. While the gang works today I'll be brining the 17 lb bird for 12 hrs, making gluten free corn bread for stuffing, baking gluten free mini brownies for the dessert and doing general prep to cut down work tomorrow. I'll be cooking my bird on the Weber which I've done for over 20 yrs. All these little traditions and attention to details never loosing sight of the gift and thanks for all the blessings big and small. There will be 2 extra dining with us this year and there is always a place set for those who might drop in, those who can't be with us and those who are no longer with us. It's not about the food, who didn't help with what, who was late or if the rolls are burned. It's not about any of that, it's about giving thanks for being. . . 

Nov 19
Don't blink it's nearly Christmas and you may miss it ! What can I say other than we've been getting things in order that needed attention and preparing for the fast approaching Thanksgiving holiday. Swimming is in order for the day as the temps are in the 80s here and it's clear and DH has the day off :) The formal thank you notes were put together and sent out which included a special limited photo. I hope you don't lose sight of giving Thanks at your table this year no matter where you are. Many wont have the blessings to share this year and are in great need. Do reach out to others and extend a helping hand.  bless

Nov 8
No, I've not been ignoring you, I've been busy healing from knee injury, trying to final prep for Tri swim and then doing it for real. I can't begin to tell you the amount of energy in that water Sunday morning but hopefully pictures share a glimpse of the joy and fun.  I had issues with my leg and couldn't Spin as long as I would have liked but DH was ready to take up my slack as we knew this might happen. I had not planned on entering the swim this year so saying I had short notice would be putting it mildly. DH said by the time stamp on the camera I did the 1.2 miles in 52 minutes. My official score will reflect not only the swim but how long it took me to crutch up the 4 flights of wet sandy stairs and across the finish line for me. I'll should know that time later today. I was watching were I was going not the score board crutching the finish line. official time was posted 0:54:48

Oct 13
DD had her stubborn wisdom tooth removed by the oral surgeon yesterday morning. After 6 shots by the dentist the day before when it became clear that she was going to have to be put to sleep, as the root would not cooperate. I completed painting 2 school bus birdhouses to sell in benefit of CAF. Both are already sold and I have one more to complete. I am going to locate more of them to today or an alternate style I can use for the design. Many ideas for the day and Im off to put them to work ! bless

Oct 11
Happy Birthday DH !! 
The swim at the shores on Sunday was wonderful. The water was so clear I took the time to dip my head and search the bottom as we swam back in. Saw plenty of seals and lots of surfers as there was a competition going on, along with the diver and kayak classes. The water was full. What we really liked was as we swam along the 1.25 miles we would pass other swimmers and share a good morning greeting and wave to each other. Often when we swim we are the only ones out there. Not having to watch for water craft was very nice as it is restricted area. In a few days we'll make the drive to the Cove to take a swim around the course before the event in 25 days. DD is having her tooth out this morning and the frig is being replaced today because of blowing the motor. Yes, it was a bit tired but it served us well. Dh and Ddog are out rabbit hunting and all is quiet before the start of the day.
 Thank you again to Rip Curl for the donation of the swim boot !!

Oct 5
I want to say Thank you, for every single penny donated for purchasing limbs and needed equipment for others... First and foremost it's about giving of myself in every way since this is something I live with myself. I don't require a hand bike which cost 2,000.00 or a running leg for 30,000.00 and know how it can help another have what they need to go out and play. DD has another infected wisdom tooth and is on meds to clear infection before the dentist can remove it. DH is working the new hours which change often but that's nothing new :) DDog is going for a bunny hunt this morning and Im off to test the wetsuit fixes.  bless

Oct 3
We had a seal swimming near us yesterday as well as some very BIG fish, maybe bass. Who knows but DH said there was one near us just offshore. No biggie is my feeling. We're just sharing the deep end :) The seal was neat though as it was passing by on its way to Seal Rock. The article ran but sadly, the link was wrong and I've not seen any sponsors from it. I need more adjustments to my wetsuit as it seems Im losing inches. This will make the 2nd time. ) Im so thankful to be LIVING! bless

Sept 29
Yesterday was fun filled and loaded with sentiment. The swim was perfect as the fog layer cleared out long enough to do an early ocean swim then moved back in engulfing the coastline not long after returning home! Knowing the piano is in a place where lots of children will get to learn to use and enjoy the experience is of great comfort. I had my 15 seconds of fame as the reporter ran the article on me in the Sun Post. Must of been a slow news day I told my DH as I was on the front page :)) btw Happy Birthday again Andrew :))  blessings all Im off to the pool soon.

Sept 27
Lot of work and important issues where seen through to fruition yesterday. The Piano has been delivered to the special needs school for them to begin new program with! DH has contacted many people asking for support via donor/sponsors. Sun/OC Register met with us yesterday for an interview and took photographs for a possible story. I'm waiting to see what if anything comes of it. You never know what they are going to come up with from the words you offer. In either case the reporter and photographer were very nice and walked the pier waiting for me to complete a short lap. I went to the end and back, 1/2 mile in 22 mins. Nice workout!!  I'm ready for the Tri, the hard part came long ago getting back in the pool then working up to 1hr sessions. From there swimming in the ocean again was just a matter of time. I need some fine tuning of my stroke and adjustment to the wetsuit but overall, things are pretty well in order. Just a matter of doing what I know and staying with it, having Fun...

Sept 23
A slot has opened for a swimmer on a Team in the upcoming San Diego Triathlon Challenge and I've accepted the position! I can already swim the required distance of 1.2 miles it is just a matter of honing my stroke and getting in the water. It started as a dream looking out my window watching the seals and hoping to get back in the water to swim out and watch them up close. Once past the obstacles I faced including those of my own making, I was off and kicking. I haven't looked back except to notice and rejoice in how far I've come. All I know is that Life is sweet in it's rewards and I'm reaping what I've sowed. bless

Sept 18
A vote was taken and the Yeas have it ! We were talking of having a Full Moon swim more than 1x a year weather permitting :) I'm signed up for the SDTC swim and have been training when I can get in the water. Keeping busy with errands and issues that pop up that life tosses in your path has us all on our toes. DD is working towards being certified as pharmacology tech and DH is finding that much hasn't changed at work even if his job title has ... We're in the process of raising funds to help others in great need of limbs and equipment to live more active and rewarding lives. I hope you click the link above to donate and show your support for my goals and efforts.  curtsy

Sept 9
What a wonderful night for a swim :) A group met and suited up, paired up, and lit up and hit the water for a full moon swim. Challenged swimmers had 2 buddies each so my tail was covered. Only problem was that I got through a big wave set and my partners, both on boards, did not ! Dh lost a fin and Mark the organizer my other buddy got nailed. Rules are you have to stay with your buddies so I was hanging out just outside the breakers while they both tried to recover and make it back in. By the time they made it out to where I was the main group were well ahead of us. It was overcast due to the marine layer but the water was a warm 70 degrees :) We all gave a great cheer then after a name check at the end of the Pier. We came in much easier between sets and I made a swift transition to crutches coming out. I had a guy under each arm making sure I remained upright while DH retrieved my crutches. They were more nervous than I was and a bit protective. :)  Once I had the crutches in hand I was motoring through the soft sand to our benches where we were gathered. Both the assistants noted I knew what I was doing and eased back as I progressed. We shared more congratulations for everyone doing and that we all made it back with no problems. We numbered 18 in all. Hot cocoa and cup of noodles were offered as a warmer while we dried off and took a couple group shots. It was a great swim and evening under a full moon even if we couldn't see it :)

Sept 6
I'm in training of a different kind now. I'm entering to Swim the Cove and ride a bike for 2hrs !!

Sept 4
 I was laughing and told DH, at this time last year you couldn't get me off the road bike, this year you can't keep me out of the water. We headed down to the beach and ran into Richard and Mary who were also getting a late start :) We hit the water together and swam out 1/4 mile and visited and enjoyed the movement of the water. A crazed guy on a water bike who came too close for any comfort crossed our paths sadly. We were waving our arms, splashing to make ourselves seen and yelling at him through cupped hands to GET OUT OF HERE ! He was in swimming area and headed right at us ! The guy was hot dogging and clearly did not know how to ride the thing except at full throttle. We watched as he nearly dumped it into the surf a couple times. He finally spotted us, slowed down to listen and once he got the point, turned around and headed back to open water.  Tip: when in open waters, if you hear engines, splash big and make yourself seen by doing so, it alerts them to someone in the water, also always wear a bright colored cap like red, yellow or bright pink. You are spotted easier that way. Could save your life, Richard was run over by one of those things and is very fortunate to still be with us...curtsy

Sept 3
Happy Labor Day Weekend folks ! I had a most Exciting day yesterday. I went for my first swim to San Mateo Rock where all the seals hang out ! I can't believe how big some of those bull seals are. There were seals covering the rock so we kept our distance as not to disturb them. They did talk to us and and a few kept their eye on us. I've wished for years to be able to swim out to watch the seals and it was breathtaking to see them in their natural setting. It was a long swim certainly and I got sick to my stomach from ingesting a bit too much sea water near the end. The swim took 90 minutes total and made the rest of the day to pass with a big smile on my face. I still have the need to test my limits but know some things are best worked towards rather then jumping in without a net. I worked steadily to reach this goal and it was well worth the effort, wait and frustration when it appeared it would not come to fruition. Getting over being in public without my leg covered and knowing the looks that come with that, getting the strength and confidence back in my swimming abilities and learn how to adapt and then putting in the time to build the foundation to reach my goal.  I've done my Open water swim of 1.3 miles, now to get my time down :)   I love a goal ... LOL curtsy  Now, how has my DH been clocking my distance in the open water? He has taken his GPS device, placed it in a ziploc bag then put in on his head under his swim cap. It worked !! We have my track of the big swim yesterday. PICTURES posted.

Aug 30
Check out Horizon wetsuits for all your water protection needs. I just got a custom fitted red and black full wet suit to enable me to do open water swimming. Today for the first time as an amputee I entered the ocean and swam the full length of the SC pier and a bit more past it. I can see that goal of the Open water swim for the fundraiser next year clearly in my sights now. How Wonderful and freeing it was to be in the Pacific Ocean swimming again :)))  Dh was with me to handle the crutches once I was in and get them for me when I was ready to get out. What a lovely day !!  Pictures soon !!

Aug 23
DH has been off work while school is still out here. We've been doing a lot of yard and house work but there is still much to be done in the office and DD room. I've been keeping up on exercise and getting ready for the Tour de Cove benefit ride. Leg is holding steady and Im going strong :) Im ready for my Open water swim and will be taking my first dip tomorrow morning. I feel its going to be the best way for me to reach some goals I have in mind. Get used to being in the Ocean then build from there. My thinking is this. 1 for swimming enjoyment and health it will be great to get back in the ocean. I used to body surf a LOT as a teen. By building water safety first I can then participate in other sports like kayaking and the such without having question as to my ability of swimming. Just doing the building blocks to assure success and fewer setbacks due to rushing in unprepared and untrained. That's how I do things. Build your foundation and know your tools and abilities and adapt and learn more as you go. One thing is for certain, My trying is doing... When I say I'll Try, that means I'm going to keep working at it till I get it but it's not going to be fast or done your way.  DP is out chasing rabbits right now and I know smiling big as can be while dashing through the park with DH in tow.  She knows very clearly the difference in walking with either one of us and I demonstrated it to DH the other morning. I've not walked her in a while and I took the lead and off we went. The more she is with us the more she fills our hearts and home. We hope she is happy and content here with us as we certainly are for having her !!!
 

Aug 11
What a wonderful break visiting the folks and just relaxing. It was my first trip since the chop and I drove the entire way. Not planned but good to know I wasn't bothered by leg pain for once. We drove back Hwy 1 and it was so quiet and the view beautiful all the way down the California coastline from San Francisco. Next trip is going to be to the Redwoods to hug some trees :).  DH got the job and was notified while we were away. He's Lead Driver along with 4 others which will begin at the end of the month. I've been playing in the garden and cleaning up around the grounds giving everything a much needed trim. I've been putting all the plants DD got while sick into a vertical split half barrel and I installed a water feature that uses a pitcher she made me with Sunflowers on it. Turned out very cute if I must say so. The rare palm is recovered from it's scale attack and doing wonderful in its new home, the epi from Archie is no longer red from sunburn, but a lovely green and I'm sure going to have big pink blooms this year. We've been moving office/bedrooms around and cleaning things out and moving DH computer to the new office as he will have more need of the space with this job change. I'm off to see the Wizard and take a dip. keep the faith ;)
 

July 29
DD has her wheels back. We think there must of been a great deal of problems with the owner of the SUV because the Apt. people have been thanking us profusely and doing all they can to get the repairs done and pay for the car damages without insurance companies getting involved.  DH 2nd interview was a boon and we have good feelings about his chances of being hired for the position. We'll know in a couple days. DDog is dong very well and we are keeping her cool with this heat we are still having. They say it will ease but not if the humidity doesn't come down. I spent time at RW's while he adjusted my bike foot to enable better walking, repaired protective cover, tried a repair on holes in sleeve, increased pad in the insert for better suspension in the socket, test fitted new sleeves and confirm I'm in a medium now, gave me sew on velcro for me to fix my sandals and shared how the swimming was having obvious results as my gait has smoothed out further :)  I told him if DH job improves our insurance situation I will be keeping him. I've not even filled out the papers for Hangar, nothing personal. But if it's not broke, DON"T BREAK IT ! We work well together and he understands me and my needs. It's like I tell him, He's ok for a Boy, I think I'll keep him for now :). I'm hoping to have a wet suit soon to start ocean training. I can say this much, this is the best I've felt and more like "Me" since the crash. I'll say it again, don't live with intractable pain if you don't have to. Get help. . . Keep the Faith 

July 26
I've been putting it out there I needed assistance If I was to reach my next level and answers have been forthcoming ! I met Beth Sanden who is a SCI patient and lives locally that does open water ocean swimming. DD car is to be completed repairs today but there is a twist, of coarse. The Apts where this happened is paying the cost and they told us they are not going to cut a check for another 2 weeks !!! Clearly this is not going to work and we have been working on other arrangements to get the car without having to wait on the Apts. In the meantime we are shuffling her to work and back. DH has 2nd interview tomorrow, finally and hope to hear not long after on the position. We've been getting DDog out for her bunny hunts before light as to keep her exercised but not outdone by this nasty heat. We hit 92 here the other day, that's HOT for the coast. We cooled down yesterday here as there cloud cover and a strong breeze off the water. I've sprung a leak in my sleeve and am using a back up. I've got some on order but not sure on the sizing as I've shrunk more. I'll see RW and have it all checked out. I'm off to the pool. :)

July 22
Hot enough for you? We are having a long heat wave here in So Cal and it can be downright stifling with the humidity. DDog is out chasing bunnies while it's cool. We've learned that she loves chasing bunnies around the parking lot while standing on the dash board of the car just as much :) If only she could drive ! DD car is still in the shop and we hope will completed by mid week. The hood they ordered was damaged and still waiting on the front bumper.  DH has a 2nd interview for the position next week. The first interview was before a 4 person panel which lasted 15 minutes of 'what would you do scenario' type questions. This interview will be mono y mono with the big boss.  I'm still swimming, lost 8 lbs and toned up, balance is great and gait has improved. I'm also in training for the annual Tour de Cove spin a thon in which I'll be riding for 3 hrs. Be good to yourselves, a lot going on in the world around us that we tend to ignore or overlook.
The Nearest Helping Hand is at the End of Your Own Arm, Reach Out !

July 18
Ok, I must be getting too much chlorine from swimming or I've lost what little mind I had to start with. Reason you ask for this line of thinking ? I've got it in my craw now that If I'm going to be able to get to swim that 1.2 mile distance is to start my own triathlon team !!!  While we sat down to dinner I put it to the family before I realized it had even come out of my mouth. In the back of my mind I was hearing something of the sort to, You're Nuts Lady to 'what were you thinkin' in my best Jeff Foxworthy voice. Yes, just what are you thinking of doing here ? What I do best, setting forth challenges I know I can reach, help raise money for others that need limbs and keep living and loving :)  I've not heard from my CAF mentor since well over a year ago and have had no reply to email, have not been getting feed back but I'm not letting that detour nor dissuade me. Learning to swim without injury to my already strained shoulder required me changing my stroke and I improved quickly. I figured that one on my own as well as most all obstacles I've faced. I'm not going to do anything to injure myself and make sure I'm often in better position to perform because of the experience and value of preparing that I've applied through out my life.

I'm off to see the Wizard... the chiro :)  bless 

July 10
My gosh, lots of hurdles being overcome and growing by leaps and bounds. Swimming daily for an hour, DH waiting for an interview to be a lead driver, DD's back to work but her car took some heavy damage this weekend when a rotted pine tree branch broke loose and fell. It totaled the SUV parked next to her, the hood, roof, front side panels and window need replacement, repair and paint. We are so thankful she was not in the car !! 

June 27
Dove right in and kept on going :D... I'm up to 26 round trip laps in the pool, just short of the 33 needed to complete 1 mile. You got it. I'm still a guppy !! I may of had one of my rudders removed but this gal can still make a wake. One thing at a time as I look into a wet suit to begin ocean swimming and wave ski riding :)  DD is healed up and returned to work duty, DH is awaiting an interview for a new position, DDog is her loving self and I'm dancing as fast as I can and loving every minute. blessings

June 20
I worked through fear and dove right in. It wasn't the water that was the problem but being in public without a leg. My form was good and no, I didn't swim in circles lol... I did pull to the left a bit in the back stroke but otherwise the coach said I'm more than capable to begin a swim program. I swam 8 laps Saturday, I used to swim a mile and I will work up to it again. I really enjoyed the pool after a long hot day, it felt great :) I've already checked into the local pool schedule and have a plan to follow. The one I had in college was very effective in conditioning and I'm going to employ the same methods now. Its good to be back in the water :) 
Keep the Faith  
 

June 11
Cleaning things out and making room for new Life to enter in can be breathtaking. DD is healing up and the left muscle wall is no longer hurting where they punched through. She is anxious to return to work but requires clearance from her surgeon. DH bid on a summer school route and awaits the posting of a position being created, Actually voted on for approval by the school board tomorrow. It would be a wonderful opportunity in many ways but will see what happens. I've got my swim suit ready to get back in the water and adapt to the change. I want to kayak ocean waves so I've got some work to do. My new Vulcan palm is doing peachy now that I've treated it for scale. The succulents have all bloomed and recovered swiftly from the repotting. No telling what today will bring we'll have to see won't we :)

June 4
DDog has healed and is back chasing rabbits :) DD has had her check up and is well on road to full recovery... phew ! DH is dealing with end of the school year issues and getting ready for the summer school program that begins shortly after the reg. school year dismissal. I'm back to walking or bike riding everyday and my days are much longer than ever before. This will be my first summer in this style of sleeve to keep my foot on. It gets very hot to say the least but I'll learn to work with it. This morning with did a bike ride by horse stables and Brandi went nuts with all the new scents :) We got out very early to beat the blazing weather we have. We had a lot of fun at the cactus show in San Diego and I have a new 'baby' in my palm collection. Little did I know my selection was of a rare endangered variety from Hawaii !! It's endangered due to the moth that aides in pollination is extinct. I'll post more info on it later, time to rest a bit  blessings

May 26
Life is moving right along, DDog has sprained her remaining front paw (toe) while chasing a squirrel with DH, but is recovering with the help of TLC after careful examination by Dr. Steve. DD is recovering at home as quiet and comfy as possible after her appendectomy. We must make a sight, me helping her get up and all :) How am I? Im running on 'Mom Fuel' and we know what that means :) yes, tired and keep on going. So here is a giggle, she is laying in pre op and two Male residents come in to assist and evaluate her before they take her in, what did they assist her in you ask? putting on the leg devices used to keep blood moving in legs. They told her to relax they would do the work.  I said Right, two strange men are taking a hold of each leg and strapping something on to them from ankle to mid thigh. You are in a hospital gown, Yes, dear you just relax. They laughed and DD said No Joke ! One wrong move and I knew she was going to slap them. LOL I've not ridden in two days but I have to conserve and use energy elsewhere right now. blessings and Thank you to all our gave their lives for their love of country and devotion of belief, Happy Memorial Weekend

May 16
Don't blink or you'll miss it ! No really, things seem to fly by while your busy living don't they? I just received my first phalanopsis type orchid for Mother's Day along with books and lots of love. DD has her surgery the 24th at 8:30am... finally! Her labs were clear and her kidneys appear to have no long term damage from the flagyl. Today is just as grey as the past weeks have been in terms of the weather along the coast here. I has burned off a couple times but not fully. Inland on the other hand is blazing sunshine and warmth. Summer is just around the corner so this is typical for us. I've got a small adjustment being made to my socket today so I'll enjoy seeing RW and giving him a hard time. . . :)  it's been a while. LOL I've been working on switching the office/dd rooms around. Boy what a mess but it's getting there. In the meantime I've got a bike calling my name so I best get moving here. Read you later :)  blessings

May 7
The motherboard and cpu were covered under warrantee so the computer is back and working fine. DD sees two Dr's for re check soon and is doing ok at this point. Still tires easily but certainly doing so much better and regaining strength slowly. DH is taking the dog for a rabbit run as I type. She is in the catch and release program. :) She loves the chase. She caught one once and when she took it in her mouth, it squeaked upon which she immediately released it and gave it a lick. The rabbit just panted at her feet until it felt renewed enough to run again upon which she took up the chase. I Love my Dog :) My Orchid cactus is ready to bloom and has 11 blossoms this year! Usually I've had only one but since I changed the type of planter it's gone nuts :))

April 30
She's HOME !  Her kidneys are working removing toxins now that she was taken off the flagyl ! From our research she was overdosed on flagyl coupled with the 2 ct scans which can cause renal insufficiency as well. She is sucking down fluids, ate some soup and pudding yesterday, snuggled and relaxed. Her broken blood vessels in her eye are clearing up. She had a circle the size of a pea of broken vessels from throwing up so hard. This poor kid has been through the ringer to say the least. All I know is, she is home with us and I feel like I can breath again. this has been a heck of a month...

April 28
Happy Life Celebration Day to ME !! I'm 18 today folks !
Yes, 18 years ago today I was nearly killed and very thankful to be ALIVE!
I may have 1 foot in the grave, but the rest of me is ALL LIVE :)~

Now, DD has been very ill of late and I had to take her to the ER and she was admitted with renal failure and appendicitis, yesterday morning. Renal failure is believed related to all the vomiting she has been going through because of the antibiotics they have her on to clear the infection. She's become allergic to Flagyl... We had plans to get massages, see a movie and share a meal, just be together today.. That is still the plan just where it will take place has changed, her hospital room. We'll watch a movie, rub her back, hold her hand, make her laugh a bit and just be together... Currently her meals are limited due to the IV. Yes, she is back to nothing by mouth as she couldn't keep water down. I'm off to ride away some stress and then head up to spend the day with DD...

Please remember, life is precious !

April 20
What a week ! DD keeps dealing with appendicitis attacks and has been back to the ER x2. The surgeon is on vacation and has her file on top of his desk for his attention upon return. In the meantime, another infection has festered and she was placed on antibiotics yet again. As for me, the socket is working out better, finally. Clearly the sleeve method works best for me at this point. I'm averaging 12 hr days and bike riding daily and doing lights weights every other day.. The hummingbird babies have both moved on but we know they will be back as long as we keep the food source out. Hummingbirds have a great memory for the location of a reliable food source. We've also had bunnies on the hill, but we're not feeding them, they are enjoying the natural grasses and seeds growing. Its fun to watch them play tag but it doesn't take much to spook them and off they scamper to their protective holes. Time to get moving break time over :)

April 13
What a lovely time the family shared celebrating our Anniversary. I've got two left feet but adjustments are needed so I can wear them without risk of injury. The one set up needs hardware added to allow for proper alignment with the foot to protect from hyperextension of my knee. The other requires deepening of the socket to allow tissue to settle without restriction which is causing bruising and blisters. The interview process is coming along for CP. It doesn't take much really, just let them do the talking and see how they respond to questions and the situation presented. One name in particular came from 3 sources and the interview went well, but we have to see what works to meet insurance requirements and my needs. I've gone through 6 sockets in 1 1/2 years and that is uncommon and Im sure the insurance company is scratching it's head. Leave it to me to not fit the norms set but hey, I'm only human :) I'm off for fittings today and hope you have a peachy Spring day.

April 7
With much attention RW got the socket design he wanted allowing room at the base to extend and give me more room later if needed. I've been singing for a long time, All I want for Christmas is my two left feet', well today must be Christmas !  I have my old leg set up so I can use it to bike ride now that the temp liner was added to fill space, works for riding but not for walking, and now my new one that fits nice and snug:)... I don't know how to act LOLOL... just kidding. I"M THANKFUL, GRATEFUL, APPRECIATIVE and Smiling ... blessings

April 5
Well the socket has to be redone as there was not enough room provided at the bottom. I have a lot of padding and need plenty of room so that the tissue isn't cramped. We've also started the process of looking for another CP to accommodate health insurance requirements . DH is more involved than I thought he would be, he started list of names before I even digested that I was going to have to change ! In the long run It might be for the best, one never knows with change. Surely, skill, experience, temperament and insurance approval all come into the play but in the end, the 'Creep' factor is going to also be important.   DD is doing better but we both have come to share a certain gene it appears when it comes to our unusual high tolerance for pain. You know something is different when your OS looks at you when you are walking with 2 joints, bone on bone in your foot without pain meds doing a kite competition circuit. That was me in 1999/2000. She pushed hers as well and it nearly cost her life! She has learned and will be taking closer care of herself while she recovers from the attack and prepares for removal of her appendix in 3 months time. Be good to yourself and share it with others, you may be their only slice of Springtime... :)

April 2
Went for first walk in months in my new socket I got Friday and I was excited to say the least. But there is a problem, already, I needed 10 ply to don the thing to keep from bottoming out. I don't know what happened and I've not lost that much weight, trust me, scale doesn't lie. This is frustrating to put it mildly. I've not been able to do a 5k let alone a daily walk. feeling rather like charlie brown right now. AARRRGGGGHHHHHHH !!!

April 1
The DD is home and keeping down solids, her color is improving and her strength returning ! Now to just get the infection cleared so they can remove the appendix safely without risk of damage to her colon. That's why it's not removed in cases like this until swelling and signs of infection are cleared up. It causes toughening and adherence of the organs and complicates the case. Another good note, I've got my new leg :)  I had shrunk so much during the interim I need 8 ply to don the new leg !! He made a special adjustment to take up some of that slack. So far so good. I've had to change the guestbook thanks to spambots who have abused the system and caused an overload.  Instead of instant posting comments now you'll have to send them to me for a while till I get what I need to stop the spam.  The hummingbirds have hatched and are so very adorable ! The funniest glimpse is of them snuggled down in the nest and you can see their little beaks sticking up !!! too cute !!  Have a great day folks, enjoy Spring, set your clocks back tonight and give a smile to someone today. You may be their only glimpse of Sunshine today ! winkers

March 27
 Our DD is still in the hospital being treated for perforated appendicitis. The meds seem to be working but it's still early to tell. I'm in 25/27 ply waiting for my leg to be finished. I've stopped the rides until the new leg is ready as this one is too painful and big to do so any longer. We'll see what today brings and how DD is doing and when she can come home. Special diet and heavy meds until she is well enough to bring back in and remove her appendix. see ya in the funny papers

March 22
Changed the clips and pedals out on the exercise bike, riding daily and keeping up with scheduling. The next fitting will be the 31st if all goes well :) We are also in the process of researching the change over to another CPO. I can risk shrinking out of this one before I've got someone lined up to step in for RW.  I hate this change especially but RW will be taking care of me through out the remainder of this prosthesis including all adjustments afterwards.  The hummingbird is tending her nest and we are waiting anxiously for the arrival of her fledge lings. As I type DH and Brandi are out hunting wabbits :) She is quite a huntress and follows the catch and release rule. No kidding! DD is sleeping and come slowly to the reality of suffering celiac and all that entails for her. Time to ride ... blessings

March 16
The test socket fit like a glove after some adjustment and it was off to the fabricator to make the needed pieces. Life seems hectic but it's only because I don't sit still very long. I'm in 23-25 ply with this system and I can put in a very full day and do so on a regular basis. Big difference compared to what I went through with the pinlock and seal in liners. Everyone is different and those did not work for me. Only way to know it trial and error and this WORKS. Good News...The mother hummingbird who has nested on our patio is tending her 2 eggs closely and doesn't leave in a bolt when we exit the back door. She tucked down in her nest during the last big storm but we made sure we had her well protected under the overhang so the nest is out of the rain :) I love watching her knowing what lays beneath her tiny feathered frame. My winter cactus is happy with the cold snap and preparing to bloom again but it is winter still after all :) Brandi is doing wonderful chasing rabbits everyday on her walks and coming close to catching a few of them. DH is doing all he can to keep up with her. LOL I'm still riding daily and extending my endurance and strength. Small changes make big steps :) keep believing

March 6
Wow, where did the time go? I've been busy riding everyday, taking care of taxes and everyday needs. I'm in 22/23 ply and just had a cast taken today to have a new socket and liner fabricated. With the amount of socks I've shrunk 1 inch all around.  It makes for a very tight fit with all those socks to make up the difference. It appears with the insurance and my current CPO that my cost will raise to 6-8k per socket and liner. That would be at a cost of 20% below Medicare too. That would mean I would have to come up with 6-8k every 3 months or so as I keep shrinking and losing weight. There is going to have to be some shopping for a new CPO at any rate. No, I'm not happy about it but I've got little choice. I'm glad we at least got me into a prosthesis that works in the long run not just when it's first fitted. Though it's so large my Chiro has commented that this socket and liner style above all has given my back and hip the least amount of trouble !  That is a big bonus coupled with my energy increase and length of being able to wear this prosthetic system. Big improvement though I am unable to do a 5k. Maybe I'm not meant to who knows. I'm remaining flexible I think its best. I'll let you know how the test socket goes :)  blessings

Feb 19
I'm riding 1hr a day, losing weight and getting a lot done. I have better energy reserves after having omitted the 1 hr walk. I'm in 20/23 ply (1 inch all around) and the walk was taking too much out of me to keep it in the workout program. I'll work them in again later but for now it's best to leave it. My neck adjustment went much easier and I believe that's also from backing off the walks. DH is off for the holiday, DD is working hard and as for the insurance issues... Our meds co pay just doubled in cost and I'll be on the phone Tues. to find out what the change is and why. Normally the co pay is 10-20 bucks per script and yesterday it was 20-40 !! I also got the billing on my last leg conversion and set up and I'm facing paying 40% of 10k per socket/liner change. I go through a socket due to shrinkage every 2-3 months which means its going to be about 3-4k per leg change out of pocket.  Talk about a catch 22 !! It's in my best interest to continue to lose weight yet the cost is going to make it very difficult to afford. Well one hurdle at a time and keeping focused on track gets the job done. I'll let you know how the insurance continues to shake down. I'm waiting to see if we still have coverage with RW after the contract ends. They may dump PPO too. We'll see. In the meantime, stay warm, keep safe and dream happy. blessings

Feb 12
With the transitions worked through and strength and trust returning in the device I'm able to walk and ride with some consistency. I still deal with energy challenges and old injuries but don't let that detour me from my aim. I just work with and around them if need be. I'm waiting to hear on when I have my next cast made for a new socket/liner. Im in 21 ply of socks and Im feeling rather packed at this point in my pros. It's taken a great deal of trial and error to get to this point but I  believe we have finally found the right system that works for my legs needs. A new show I've come across on Discovery Health Channel is called 'Rebuilt' dealing with people and prosthetic needs. Very informative.  blessings :)

Feb 3
I've had a great deal of transitioning to deal with of late. Going from one prosthetic system to another, no leg for 2 months to wearing one again, injuring my back and recuperating all the while trying to learn to walk and adjust to the new system. The new custom silicone liner along with the silicone outer sleeve that forms the suction is the socket design that works the best for my situation. I'm in 18-20ply of socks which means it's time to cast for a new socket and liner to be fabricated. If we can get corrected the one spot that gets irritated and blisters and has made regular bike rides impossible it would be great. I ride one day maybe two then blister and have to wait for the skin to completely cleared up before I can ride again. Ointment and Silicone gel is not helping. We have been narrowing down the root cause and small adjustments were made to the socket today. I did a 1/2 hr ride today and there is irritation, no blisters though :) I'm not pushing my goals right now as not to get discouraged having to accept the setbacks of re injury and being without a properly fitted prosthesis. I'm back up to 1.25 miles walking, and can still ride an hour on the bike, though not on a daily basis just yet. Time and small adjustments. As for the insurance: we're waiting to find out what will be the final negotiated contract and whether my CPO will take my insurance. I won't know more until after March when the initial contract is expired. Payment will go up to 60/40 plus deductible IF he does take my insurance. In the meantime my eye is still on the sparrow and I'm reaching for the Stars... blessings

Jan 29
It's going to be a lovely day... I woke up :) I had a great walk with the family yesterday. I so love watching my dog hunt ! She's so quick and alert and springs into action before you know what she spotted. It's a joy to see the animal in her reemerge. Yes, indeed she inspires me to find the little things and go forward, not fret or be tied to the past. Dogs live in the moment and its a great place to be. PRESENT :) blessings

Jan 26
Blue Cross has gone and dropped rates so low... I'm facing losing my CPO !!!! with the PPO rates I can't afford to keep him at a 60/40 cost of coverage.  Im so pissed I think I could SPIT NAILS !!!!!!  Ok, so I'm sitting in my dining room looking out the window eating my lunch yesterday. Discerning the ocean tide come and go, and saying ... I don't get it. what am I to do with this. How do I manage this one. screw being strong, someone fix what someone else screwed up for me !!! where is paula jean brown when this happens? I just want to reach out and shake her !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dang drunk drivers
so as I sat I watched a small bird on the wire outside the window, I think, ok, what am I to learn from this, what's the lesson. As I watch the bird relieve itself... I think , great ' life is going to unload on you, just be sure to not look up with your mouth open...(smiles) I then said to myself, come on, and just watched the bird and began thinking how the bird doesn't know where it's next meal is going to come from (today was provided in my yard) or it's shelter tonight... but it gets up and keeps going.  I need to trust that what I need is going to be provided,, I know it's going to take hard research and sacrifice on my part, but just the same, it will be resolved.  sigh Time to get moving and take a walk with my pup. :) Yes, of coarse I'm frustrated but life is still GOOD and I've got some living to do ... blessings