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Journey 2004
Dec 30
Life has taken a deep breath and grabbed a hold and shaken the
World.
My heart and prayers to All.
I made a personal decision that if things go as hoped, is going to require
a commitment on my part. Time will tell if my recent efforts
were in vain or if I'm lying to myself about what I really
want. Hang in there you'll find out soon enough. I've been
very good, not pushed myself to get out and about and put
myself at greater risk of injury. The incision and suture
holes are scabbed over lightly and appear CLOSED. I bathed it
for the first time yesterday and it felt so good. I'm
not allowed to soak it which means no swimming but for me it's
too cold to be swimming outdoors with my lungs.
Right now, I have another growth but this one I don't mind too
much. Yes, I know, but this one is a furry beauty that just
loves to snuggle and nap on me. Here are some things
that my new dog and I share in common: like to play in mud,
don't like lights when trying to sleep, growl when not ready to wake up, don't like screeching tires,
prefer company while dining, can go up stairs easier than
down, and both have had a left foot removed due to trauma.
Dec 27
Yeah !!! All 5 of the lovelies (stitches) were removed this morning at
the clinic. Good Dr. was in emergency surgery so he was not
able to see me. The area looks great, truly... It did change
the shape of my stump now that the scar tissue and abscess was
removed. I'm relieved and will keep things conservative still
for a while yet. Keep the area dry for a few more days and
will not be wearing the pros. until I'm cleared by the OS. in
a couple weeks. I know better. In the
meantime Christmas was wonderful !! I have a new leg and it
doesn't hurt like my old one ;o) a new dog and though she is
missing 1 leg my DH tells me not to worry, it's on
backorder... ;o) Prayers for all through your needs and
dreams of your heart.
Dec 25
Happy Birthday
Jesus
Dec 23
Brandi is having her teeth cleaned and will be home later this
afternoon. She loves her walks, is very smart and alert to
everything around her. She checks out the Christmas lights and
lamps as they blink and loves to smell all the new things that
come out of the bags. Just like a curious child she is :) and
we love her. DH is finally off on break while school is
out, but his lungs seem to have gotten irritated while
cleaning out the garage the day before yesterday, I surely
hope it's only from the dust and not relapse. I have been
staying home not risking falling or getting bumped with having
stitches in. Having not closed from the amputation has
me proceeding very cautiously with regards to going out and
what activities I perform at home at this stage. Just a few
more days and the stitches come out so patience :) I am
going for a ride today since I have been so good. Nope, no
shopping, what little that was done was completed by the
DH/DD. The sun is out and I hope it's warm, I can't wait to
get out for a bit. Have a great, fun, productively blessed day
;o)
Dec 20
The check of the wound and dressing change was very swift and
with good results this morning. The incision looks very good
and the entire area closing. I RTC in 1 week for removal of
stitches. In the meantime, keep it clean and dry with 4x4
gauze to cover it and then my shrinker sock over. I RTC to see
my OS in a little over 2 weeks time. It is a lovely
morning but I'm sick of the driving and glad to be back home.
It pretty clear the holiday travel has increased traffic on
the freeways. I'm off to have lunch and spend time with Brandi
and continue healing. blessings
Dec 17
I had my first post op check this morning and had to head out
to San Diego early. The appointment was to remove the wick and
replace it with a fresh one along with bandages. The
dressing is now covered with my stump sock to keep it all in
place. Feels good and the incision looked very good ! I go
back Monday for another check along with another wick and
dressing change. We'll see how it looks after the weekend but
I'm sure it will continue to do peachy. I'm feeling pretty
good but resting and not running around a lot. I've got
stitches in and ya don't play around having just had surgery.
If I go out I use my chair right now to keep my leg supported
and allow me not to worry about balance on the crutches in
public. It's fine around the house but out in public it's too
risky really with the post op meds. Brandi and I along with
the rest of the family have bonded to say the least. I'm off
to watch a movie with her... :) blessings
Dec 16
I'm home and doing peachy considering.. lol I ate my morning
melon and did the meds. back to resting
Dec1 5
Chiro 12pm, EKG 1:30pm, Report to Out Patient Intake
2pm, Surgery 4pm
9:10 Left Home
10:20 Chiropractor
10:45 Left Chiropractor
11:30 Arrived in Admit at hospital
12:15 paperwork with Jill
12:35 finish paperwork, order labs
12:41 draw blood
12:50 EKG with Joan
1:05 vitals
1:30 restroom
2:25 bentyl (stomach ugh)
2:30 restroom
2:35 warm blanket
2:40 Jill left for day
2:55 restroom
3:10 vomited
4:30 Westover, anesthesiologist. spoke with Ellen started
IV line
4:36 Eileen OR nurse
4:45 off to OR
6:00 Botte says surgery went well, made 1 inch
incision, removed an abscess, cut open open the abscess,
filled with puss, can find no cause for the failure to
close or the abscess, treated wound with numbing ointment,
may wear off at 4 in morning, inserted drain, remove the
drain here day after tomorrow (Friday).
7:20 Left hospital
8:20 Arrived home. (goodnight)
surgery has been
moved up to 2pm, with intake at 11:30am. Yeah
Dec 13
I've stopped the antibiotic as ordered and made an executive
decision to don my pros. today. I went out to breakfast with
my DH and had the honor of sponsoring a Marine couple to a
breakfast. It was nice to get out and I left the driving
to DH after we had breakfast together. We went to the Vet to
get Brandi her first full visit with her new Doc this morning.
We had Her ears cleaned and had her bathed and nails clipped.
Her check up showed she is a very healthy and a happy
beautiful girl who has found a new family the Vet stated. He
said a lot of her shyness will resolve now that she has a
family of her own and clearly has bonded with us already in
the short time she has been with us. Now I rest, tomorrow is
my pre op. blessings
Dec 10
The hole and scar tissue is going to be addressed surgically
next week. Tentative is next Wednesday late afternoon.
He could of done it today but wants me off meds two days to
see what grows out of the deep tissue culture and have time
for paperwork to clear with my insurance. We've given it time
and meds and it's not resolving, besides, when he checked it
yesterday, it spit some the plug that forms and he saw the
thick goop for a change. He said it could be a neuroma so I
won't be able to do it under a local. An epidural/spinal is
not good idea at all with my lower back problems from the
wreck and I may opt for a leg block since it's going to take
20 minutes. This would be a piece of cake compared to the
nearly 2 hours of debridement I went through when the bone
became infected back in 88, I was awake for that one. I was
switched to Cipro earlier this week when it was evident the
Keflex was not working and blood was beginning to show up in
the discharge. Im not running a fever and it appears what ever
is the problem is localized to a small area of the incision
and the scar tissue that has formed below it. It's been 6
months since the chop and I'm not able to wear my foot,
something has to be done. In the meantime I'm spending all my
time with Brandi. Cuddling, playing and just getting her
settled and us acquainted. She did give me a look when I got
home yesterday like, 'Where have You been !' lol
How do I feel about the surgery? I want my leg healed right
and it's not now, I hate surgery in all honesty but know it's
needed at this point to have a successful outcome. I'm doing
all the things needed to make sure I am prepared and in proper
mental, spiritual, emotional and physical states to get on
that table again. In the meantime, after my visit with
the OS I went down to the bay and drove Fiesta Island to Play
after the rain ;o) I got MUD, Life's Short, PLAY
DIRTY
Dec 3
Brandi's Home !!! We couldn't be happier!!
Dec 1
update late morning: Amy called and the OS wants
me to take the Keflex, keep an eye on spot and RTC in 1 week.
If any changes or problems come in ASAP. In mean time keep the
foot off and behave myself. lol He feels the positive culture
is resulting from 'skin' meaning it's spitting a stitch and
taking it's time.
waiting for OS to call back about seeing me or
wait to see if meds resolve problem so incision will close.
Besides, Brandi is coming to live with us tomorrow and I'd
much rather be home with her than driving to San Diego for him
to tell me to go home and come back in a week. lol so
far I've done 2 loads of wash and cleaned out the fridge and
have no idea what I'm making for dinner. opps LOL
DH has returned to work, though he still has sore throat and
sinus trouble, but his eye infection has cleared at this
point. I miss him already... I used the energy of being
frustrated to get all the Christmas cards done
yesterday. Yep, all signed, addressed stamped and mailed. Yeah
I'm not wearing the foot of coarse while the infection is
clearing. The draining is a less but the knot is still
there under the incision. I'm hoping since it's remained
contained it's just a glitch with a deep suture and will
resolve with the meds. I didn't get the call back from the OS
secretary so clearly I'm not going to San Diego to be seen
today. Fine with me too, I am in no mood to be dealing with
Jane & Joe Public on the roads. If I said the Keflex was
upsetting my stomach that would be an understatement so
hopefully I can take the full 10 days of it. We'll see how it
goes. I'm in a holding pattern of sorts and being patient and
accepting through the difficult processes. We're doing the
best we can without a net. We've not had a manual that tells a
family or individual how to adjust to the changes of life as
an amputee. Patience and Acceptance are cornerstones though.
Prayers with you all.
Nov 30
I've gotten the lab results and they were positive, which makes sense as
to why the incision has still not closed. I'm on Keflex again
for the next 10 days. I'll let you know what the OS says. I'm keeping the foot off of coarse but there are
still chores that need to be done. Just means ingenuity and
patience. I'll get them done 1 at a time.
Nov 28
My time has been spent taking care of my sick DH. He came down
with a cold that went into his eye, sinus, throat and lungs.
He is slowly improving with the antibiotics, rest and homemade
soups. I've been wearing my foot an average of 4-6 hrs a day.
The atrophy is a real pain at this point. We drove to Studio
City and visited with the Rescue Foundation we are looking to
adopt a dog through. Brandi is a sweet blonde staffie boxer
mix, and very strong even with just 3 legs. She gives lots of
kisses and is fond of back and belly scratches and I even
pinched her butt a few times which she didn't seem to mind...
LOL All that is left is the home check and donation
which is scheduled for this Thursday morning. The Foundation
does not play around with who they select in adopting out to
because the dogs are rescues and they want them placed where
it is the safest and best for the animal. Brandi was hit by a
vehicle and left on side of the road. She is very skittish of
buses and my suspicion is that it was a bus that struck her.
She went through a few surgeries before they decided it was
best to remove the painful front leg. She handled it well from
what I was told and it hasn't seemed to slow her down. She is
about 3yrs old. I'm going to need a harness for walking this
lil lady. She didn't like the click sound my liner makes when
I put my foot on, but after I did it a few times she saw what
I was doing and she calmed down. She doesn't like other dogs
but that's not a problem since she will be the only pet in the
home, a choice we made in selecting her. I look forward to
working with Brandi as she grows and heals from her difficult
beginnings. She deserves a loving home of her own, she's a
sweet girl and we can't wait to welcome her into the family.
Nov 22
I had another check of the wound and check my post op recovery
with the OS this morning. There are a few things. First the OS
feels that the spot that keeps popping its plug is related to
a 'deep' suture. We are going to do another culture of the
fluid/drainage then determine if I need to be put back on
antibiotics. It was closed at one point but popped it's plug
again. He also would prefer not to open it up if at all
possible and let my body keep working as it has been though
it's been slow. If we do go back in it will be to resolve scar
tissue that is forming quickly along the suture line as well
as remove the excess skin and tissue that is now causing the
stump to flap. I put a silicone liquid on it to prevent skin
on skin irritation but eventually if the skin and underlying
tissues do not catch up to the amount I've shrunk then I will
need a revision of my stump performed. For now, the goal is to
progress with caution and see if my body does not resolve the
issues on it's own. He said he is very pleased with the
level of my activity and that compared to most of his patients
I am what he would call 'highly active' and that I am doing
very good. I had printed up a collage of my recent
achievements and he requested that he be allowed to keep it
with the intent of putting it on his office wall !! So, I'm
still partial weight bearing, keeping doing what I'm doing and
get the new wound culture turned in since I'll be doing it at
home myself. I was feeling a lil down because I had to
cut back but can see from how my OS responded and how my
clothes are fitting that I'm on the right track and to keep
going... Slowly, patiently and one foot in front of the other.
Happy News Indeed :) blessings
Nov 19
I've been riding the exercise bike, cleaning and running
errands, just keeping busy. I did get a full 1 hr ride in with
minimal problems and am pleased with the new socket thus far.
I'm off to have another fitting and recheck that things are
lined up properly this morning. Healing blessings and prayers
to you.
Nov 16
We've sent the required application off to adopt a new furry
family member. I'll let you know how things go and who comes
to live with us. Right now we are looking at Brandi a 3yr old
Staffie mix. She is missing her front left leg. Today I'm
going to do my full ride of 1 hr since I had not problems with
the 1/2 hr one I did the other day. The hole spits a plug now
and then but it's so small. I see the OS again next week so
one way or the other more will be known. No, there is no smell
or signs of infection at all and the plug is reducing as well
as the size of the opening. I will also learn if I'm cleared
to begin full weight bearing. As long as I've had an open
wound I'm not allowed to walk without crutch/es. I will
be hearing from the Physical Therapist this week as the
paperwork was cleared and approved for treatment.. Yeah !!
That will be of great help with exercises to build up without
re injuring my lower back, neck and shoulders. I've got soft
tissue injuries from the wreck that I live with and work
through but certainly have to be taken into consideration if
I'm to maintain a workout program. A PT is just what I need
;o)
Nov 14
Dillon
It's been a very hectic week ! Eye exam, socket fittings,
adjustments, chiropractor, therapy of one sort or another and
waiting for new glasses. Sadly, we had our dog pass away but
we are thankful for the smiles and love he shared with us all
these years. He will never be gone from our hearts. We are
looking into adopting another Staffie. We all
have agreed we want another and there is one lady we are looking at. Keep an eye
on the gallery because I have pics I will be posting. I
have started riding a bike and walking more since I am having
few issues with this socket that restrict me... I was walking
and standing a good deal today and had no bruising or redness
like I had with the previous socket. I decided it was not a
good idea to attempt a 5k walk 2 days after receiving my 3rd socket.
Due to pain with the last one
and it's limitations I have to build up again and rushing into it is not in the
plans. Slow and Steady with determination ;o) I'm going
to be hearing from the PT lady I was hoping to be approved to
work with. The one they sent me to before was not only
insulting but laughable. That's ok, in the end the laugh is
going to be on him. Have a great and productive week and
I hope you had a wonderful weekend.
Nov 5
Today I went to the Chiro and enjoyed time with my DH since he
is working late tonight. The adjustments always help my back
and neck feel so much better afterward. Other than today, I've
been doing as asked and resting my leg by not wearing my
bucket (prosthesis). I haven't worn it since I got casting
done last Monday. The insurance approved the new socket
and shell so this is great news!! Very good indeed ;o)
I've been doing research about the mythical Phoenix, Phenix,
Firebird and learned there is also a constellation by the same
name. It's rising begins on my birthday !! What is it with the
number 28 in my life !?!?! A rebirth is the only way I could
describe my journey and the Phoenix seems an appropriate
symbol. I'm still working on the idea and finding an artist to
assist me with doing the black outer shell...
Nov 1
I went to the Triathlon
that supports the Challenged Athletes Foundation and in
support of my neighbor who is a below knee amp. I can't wait
to hear how he finished. His goal was the entire 1/2
Iron man event in 6 hrs !! GO MATT ! I'm nowhere that level of
competition but I know where my spirit and hopes can take me
and can't wait. For me I've found the 'getting there' has been
the sweetest reward if it helps someone else in the end too. I
guess it's just how I'm wired, but I hope to keep helping
others as I get stronger. I feel like I've been waiting 17
years and though I know it's no easy road, I'm so excited ;o)
I had an appointment with my CP today and was so thankful to
have a new cast for another socket. R.W. is making sure I've
got two viable leg options when we get through this... Bless
his heart, he puts up with my humor and nerves, but doesn't
seem to mind too much ;o) LOL onward and Upwards
Elle'
Oct 29
This socket is
giving us both a run for the money. I'm going to ask him to
check the bruising on the bottom. At this point I flux between
13/17 ply top/base to 15/19 by afternoon. I had to cut another
shorty this morning of 2ply. I know it's a constant change and
it's going to take time to say the least. I just don't want to
get discouraged by the cut backs I have to make to adjust and
am guarding against it. Making sure I keep expectations and
goals realistic. Keeping things in check and enjoying the rest
... I'm going to CAF (challenged athletes foundation)
Half Iron man in La Jolla this Sunday.. I know someone who is
entered and hope to get some added motivation and inspiration
to get me over the humps. Ever little bit helps keep me
focused and on target.
Oct 28
Ok, I just hit my head and gave myself whiplash when I heard
that the average woman is 5'4 ! Egads, I'm 6'0 !!! so much for
being average... lolol I wish I could say it's all bells and
whistles with no problems but life does not afford that but
for brief, sometimes fleeting moments. Overall, considering
where I could of been born and live in this world, I'm very
blessed. I do my best to not let frustration, disappointment
and pain wear me down when things don't go so well and seem to
get to be more than I can handle. Its a big adjustment and the
new leg makes it all the more painfully clear right now how
much adjusting I still have to do. I will need a new socket
next month with how I am shrinking and the one I have now is
making the transition challenging.
The scar irritation clears up over night but the bruising on
the bottom is not. It was enough of a problem yesterday that I
could only ride 1/2 an hr on my bike where normally I can do 1
hr easily. I've backed off and barely walk or ride at this
point and I surely hope this is only temporary as I continue
to heal. One step forward, two steps back. Heck of a dance but
I get there. I'm persistent at the very least.
and no: I don't
have a name for my foot... it's my foot, only difference is, I
can take mine off.
Oct 25
We got up early to drive to the Queen Mary
where the walk was scheduled to begin at 9am. There were about
250 people and I did ok in what crowd there was. OC Sheriff's
Dept, CHP, MADD, Autobytel and a local radio station had small
tables set up with key fobs, mini fans and information. There
was a marching band playing the National Anthem and a few
other songs before the beginning of the walk. They had bagels
and muffins with plenty of ICE water and juices available. I
had my melon on the drive up so I knew I had what fuel I
needed. There were 5 others who were in wheel chairs and one
other bk amputee. She was not very friendly... The walk
began 1 hr late due to waiting for Sheriff Lee Baca to arrive,
which he never did. I began the first 100 yrds walking with 1
crutch but once the path got narrow and headed down a slope, I
began using both. The route wound along the waterfront, past a
few hotels before it turned and led us up and over the bridge.
It then brought us to the Aquarium of the Pacific, the
Lighthouse and the 1/2 way turn around point. From there it
was back up over the bridge we crossed and along the prior
path walked. I completed the walk in 1 1/2 hrs. Next year I'll
form a team. This time, for the first time, I got up and
walked for me. After the wreck my motivation and focus was my
daughter. I gave my all and got up for her, including after
the ankle fusion. This time, it had to be for Me. I had to
give to me the recognition of what I've gone through and
faced. Of the struggles and the loss and of the triumph and
renewal of hope. My steps have deeper and fuller purpose no
matter where they lead.
I'm doing good but having problems with this socket. I'm shrinking faster
than my skin so I have a flap that I put silicone on to help
prevent irritation. Needless to say, it's still irritated. If
the skin does not catch up and the flap continues to be an
issue it is very possible I'll need to have a revision done.
When not in my leg I keep compression on to keep things in
place and protect me. I wish I could say the wound was
closed but for the life of me, it's NOT !! It's the size of a
pencil lead, yes that small and still pops a plug. We suspect
there is a possible internal suture my body is working on
spitting out. It's been 5 months since surgery now as it
slowly closes with no signs of infection.
During the walk for some reason the leg kept rotating inward
and I would have to stop, take it off and reposition it. You
can see the rotation in the lil video clip of me walking over
the bridge the first time. It might be a problem with the pin
lock device that the liner fits into. In either case I'm
scheduled to see the CP tomorrow if I don't go in today. We
have a real big storm coming tomorrow with likelihood of water
spouts. Not sure I feel like driving in that again. I'll call
this morning to see about rescheduling maybe.
blessings and healing hugs
5 kilometer (3.1 miles) Walk
Benefit
Thanks for your support: My Family, RW
and the Capo Cruisers
Oct 18
I have been concerned about doing more than my usual walk
and this morning was no different. I'ts a big jump in
distance as I've been pretty 'comfy' doing 2 1/2 miles till
this point. The 3.1 miles just seemed like sooo much but I
had no way of knowing my limits with out testing them. I
felt I needed to get out and break in the new socket on a
decent walk and decided that even with the weather being
cool from the recent downpours, I was heading for the beach.
Instead of walking south to make the usual turn at beach
road I instead aimed for the main gait and the point we had
marked for the turn around to complete 5k. I kept a slow
steady pace and took a few pauses along the way, but I
completed the entire 5k w/1 crutch !!! It is the
farthest I have walked since late 90s ! I'm exhausted and
exhilarated LOL and look forward to what ever next
challenges I set for myself. Onward and Upward
Oct 15
Whatever pain I was getting for the past three days I didn't
get one twinge of yesterday. YEAH I walked all day w/
1 crutch so hopefully it will be a short visit with the CP
today for a socket check especially with the 5k coming up.
Yep, back to San Diego again and I'm going to combine it
with an another appointment while down there. See, it all
works out. Depending on the weather maybe a bike ride later
today at the beach but that depends on the
weather/fog/allergens. I got my flu shot early thankfully as
my Doc sends me a letter advising me to get the shot since I
got so sick in 01/02. The harvest of the years labors is
upon us and the fruit of the labor shall be laid up for the
coming winter months. Be good to you and nurture yourself.
Smile today, you may be the only piece of heaven in
someone's life today. :)
Oct 13
We had issues to take up with the County Assessor so DH and
I headed north 1 hr to attend to the paperwork since he
didn't have to be into to work till this afternoon. We'll
see how they handle it from here as we gave them all the
information they needed to correct the problems. I have been
able to wear my foot and walk w/1 crutch, but after about 1
hr I get an area that gets a sharp pain. The CP feels it
could be a muscle cramping but if so, why now as I never had
it happen before, and what changed to cause it and how to
fix it... I am going to ride my bike for exercise tomorrow
rather than attempt walking and deal with the pain and
frustration every 3 - 5 steps, I don't get the pain when I
ride thankfully... No matter how I don the liner or what ply
of socks I wear I get the pain and it's been three days
consistent. I'm not sure about this new socket but I'm
hoping we can get this resolved soon. If not I'll 'wheel'
the 5k though I'd like to walk. I'm realistic about having
limits and respecting them. Wheels or heels, I'll be at that
walk... blessings
Oct
12
I had an OS check yesterday for the wound and I go back in 6
weeks or if any changes. I then got adjustments on the new
socket. I was having problems doing much of anything without
inducing pain so it' been pretty slow going this past week.
I was able to keep the housework up but with a lot of
effort. Today, I was able to ride a full 12 miles .. yeah
!!! Walking is another story as I undergo the next phase
while my leg continues to shrink. Protecting those bones and
trigger points gets trickier as we go and I seem to have
irritated a couple of them. I'm taking baby steps literally
and enjoying the riding at home for now. At least I have
that and enjoy the view immensely. It was DH birthday
yesterday and we had fun doing the lil things that make him
smile, time with family, a fav movie, dinner and lots of
love. you can see his cake in the gallery... blessings
Oct 11 DH
birthday Os Check up CP adjustments
Oct 10 groceries /errands
Oct 9 house cleaning on
crutches
Oct 8
I got the new fabricated socket and the thing feels great
but it's an adjustment in any case. I'm sore I'm going to
take it as my body dictates. I'll be up and going in no time
but for now it's back to 2 crutches and literal baby steps.
I got a short massage and adjustment at the chiro today. It
helped with the strain my lower back has been going through
from the changes. Of coarse I don't think it helped that a
few days ago I was full weight bearing though it did help RW
understand how I felt I was 'in a hole'. I still have an
open wound and yes, it didn't feel so great today with all
the changes. We have
thick fog along the coast with fall approaching and the mold
count is up which is no good for the lungs. I'm going to
have to watch myself this year having just come out of
another surgery, I don't want a repeat of what happened
after the ankle fusion. I'll restrict my bike riding
to indoors or wait for warmer days. I can walk at the local
mall and will add weight lifting to my regimen soon. I'm
also looking into Yoga to assist in maintaining my
flexibility and improve my balance. I've got hard work to do
to reach my goals so I pull myself up by the boot straps and get
to work... Onward and Upward just remember, Baby Steps ;o)
Oct 7 wore socket 8
hrs 4 loads wash, dishes, dusting, garden and cook
dinner
Oct 6 new socket today, test walked, balance w/w out
crutches, dinner
Oct 5 leg out being fabricated 'footless' w/crutches
Oct 4 the new
socket fitting went good and my foot is to be picked up Wed.
once the fabrication is done. At first Insurance wanted to
only do the inner socket and not the entire piece but with
how much I had shrunk, it would be an issue, R.W relayed and
thankfully, the insurance approved swiftly. I'm going
for a flu shot later today so DH is napping right now, it's
his day off so what can I say... LOL Onward and Upward
;o)
Oct 3 1 hr walk at mall, groceries, 6.5
mile bike ride
Oct 2 no pt due to back
pain
Oct 1
I have been Officially clipped, meaning I injured my back
and my Chiropractor said NO WAY to my usual 10 mile ride. He
said 10 minutes then stretch but I'm to back off and rest on
all levels. What can I say, I heard something pop when
I got on my bike yesterday morning and it's been getting
worse though I've been stretching. Off to the Chiro I went
and wound up on the massage table this morning !! Yep, for
once I got what I have given as gifts to others, a massage.
I am feeling much better and know it's going to take some
work to get my knots worked out. I got a cash gift for my
birthday and have set part aside to donate to Challenged
Athletes Foundation, then I will take a portion and get a
few massages while I'm in the transition phase of learning
to walk again. I am cleared with the HMO for the new
socket so will be dealing with fittings and being footless
while it's being fabricated. It's a hardware
upgrade ;o)) Barbie eat yer heart out... LOL
Sept 30 10 mile bike ride
with family ;o)
Sept 29
day off w/migraine
Sept 28 Full moon,
monthly friend and my 45th bday what more could a girl ask
for !!??? LOL yep you read it right, I'm another year
older and wiser, or so I'm told . ;o) I had a lovely
day. I went for a 2 mile walk *55mins with the entire family
while DH was on break, went to lunch with my DD as DH had to
go back to work and was embarrassed by my fav 'chef' and
ladies at the local diner when they sang to me. God bless
you Juaquin, Rene' and Ket... ;o) You're the best... I then
went home to rest and enjoyed some quiet time alone. We had
talked of dinner out if I was up to it and since I rested, I
was ;o) That made it 3 times I had donned my leg today !!
After DH hosed off (LOL) we piled in the truck and headed to
dinner overlooking Dana Point Harbor at the Chart House. We
had a window seat with a sweeping view of the Harbor below
and the Pacific, parking and access were NO problem, I was
on crutches and it was well lit so I was pretty comfortable
being out at night for the first time with my new foot. OH,
and I wore Sandals, Yes I kept my Mephistos that were
special adjusted by the cobbler for me back when I had the
ankle fusion and he removed the lift and they work wonderful
with the prosthetic!! So all the shoes I had the lift and
rocker put on I was able to recycle.. ;o) It is nice
to be remembered not only for it being my birthday but for
being alive. Just that I'm even here at all is still a
Miracle in my eyes. Though it is nice to know that others
are glad I'm alive what's really important is that I'M GLAD
... now blow out the candle and make a wish ;o)
Sept 27 fitting and hopefully
casting for new socket. This one is already too big !!
Sept 26 10.5 mile ride averaging 11mph in 57mins
18 ply
Sept 25 rest sleep and more rest
Sept 24 Chiro, walk balance 10 hrs
Sept 23 road 12.25
miles in 1 hour 18 min. average of 9.4 mph
Sept 22 wore foot 10
hrs cleaning, gardening, groceries and short walk
(.9)
at beach at end of day
Sept 21 5 mile bike ride walking/balance 5.5
hrs total
Sept 20 am. 2 mile walk
w/1 crutch went out to lunch w/DH ;o)
pm. 2.7 mile bike ride @beach... Great Day !!
Sept 19 10 mile bike ride ;o) weeeeee
Sept 18 8 mile ride (my bike) 5.5 hrs total
w/foot on
Sept 17
I don't even know what to say except YEAH !! I was able to
ride my own bike for the first time today and it was
WONDERFUL... I did a total of 5.5 hrs in my foot and rode
nearly 7 miles averaging 12mph. Not bad for the first time.
My DH had the day off due to Fall break (already!) so he was
trailing right behind me on his bike with the GPS and a keen
eye open for any problems. I think he was nervous for me I
know I sure wasn't !! Can't wait to go again, ready??
;) LOL
Sept 16 am. 5.5 hrs 6mile bike
ride
Sept 15 am. 6 hrs
w/1 crutch store/heavy gardening/house
cleaning
Sept 14 am.
5hrs walk/balance/45 min bike
Ok, I put laundry away, did dishes, cleaned up around the
house, played with my dog and enjoyed the quiet. I've
got chicken out to bake for dinner already and one more load
to fold. This and a 45 min ride after 4.25 hrs already on my
'feet'. I'd say a rather busy bee. lol I would
have to say that the one who is happiest, besides myself, is
my dog. He still won't snuggle like he used to, partly
because what he snuggled with is gone. Yep, he loved to curl
up against my leg but you should see him perk up once I don
the foot. He gets like a puppy again and He jumps around
wanting to play. Bless his heart, he knows there is a
difference but he doesn't know why and he clearly doesn't
like it. I'm not so thrilled but the option left little to
be desired ! He got awfully mad at me the other morning when
I went for a walk. I got up early and he wanted to go but
with his age, it's too much on him. We're going to get a
cart to ride in and then we can bring him along. I miss
having him with me, He's been by my side since his rescue in
95. blessings all
Sept 13 am. 45 min ride @ home
yes I was sore from the walk... in my BACK, my leg was fine
!
Sept 12 2.4 mile walk !
Sept 11 am.
waking/45 min bike ride 2hr.
In Memory of those who can no longer walk.
Each step in your honor.
Sept 10
I had a lovely morning and hope you did as well ;o) I
wanted to increase the amount of time I wore my foot so I
donned it at 6:40am and did chores around the home and
garden with one crutch ;o) I got a lot done and after
finishing up with that I got on my exercise bike and rode
for 1/2 hr. Total time this morning wearing my foot was 3hrs
35mins with no redness or irritation of any sort. It's going
to be another warm day along the coast so I'm pleased I got
done before it gets too hot to exercise. It feels so good to
ride a bike without pain !! Have a Happy Productive Day. If
you fall down, take a breath, brush yourself off, get up and
keep going ;o)
Sept 9 am. 1.1 mile
walk on Pier 3 flights of stairs (alternating
legs/varied weight/1 crutch)
pm. 4 mile ride @ home
I can tell the bike riding is having benefits already. My
leg is getting stronger, balance thus improving with muscle
tone, I have more energy at the end of the day and continue
to improve each time. I am cleared to progress with weight
bearing and activity as tolerated, but I'm not coming out of
the shoot like a wild horse by overdoing it. It is
such a relief in many ways to not be dealing with the pain I
was in from my foot any longer. As difficult as it is being
an amputee, it was a wise choice. I'm walking as far as I
did after the ankle fusion and was not able to tolerate
riding a bike since 2000. I used to hike, climb, ride, swim,
run and PLAY... One at a time, I'll be able to do them again
and then some...
Sept 8 am. 5 mile bike
ride 1/2 hr, balancing pm. strength
balance
It's easier to ride my lifecycle at this point but I can't
wait to get on my real bike again !! I'm still taking baby
steps as instructed for my own protection and recovery.
Depending on my work out duration and intensity and what
else I have scheduled for the day influences whether I do 1
or 2 PT's in a day. Sometimes I get restless and need the
2nd workout to further reduce stress. I do wonder
though about a PT who tells you to come back when you get
your foot and when you do then tells you to come back when
you are 100% wb!! It's frustrating not to have 'open' access
to needed assistance. Always, there are hoops to be jumped
through and I personally think it STINKS !!! Nope, it's not
easy folks. Ahhh, Another day of Abundant Sunshine in
Paradise ;o) It was cool and foggy early this morning so I
relaxed and enjoyed the quiet before starting my day. I hope my friends in Florida are all right with what
they have faced in the past three weeks. be safe gang !!
prayers n winkers ;o)
Sept 7 am. 2 mile walk
I attempted to beat the heat and went for my walk @ 8am. It
helped a little but there was no wind at all to speak of so
it was still very warm even at that hour. Afterwards, I went
to the Chiro for a much needed adjustment and learned I've
lost 9 lbs since I got my foot 3 weeks ago, an
added benefit Id say ;o) On the way home I stopped to
get my already short hair trimmed shorter. It's just to blazin hot right now and my arms don't need the extra work
of keeping a hair style up. I'm sure I'll let it grow out
again but for now.. Short it is
Sept 6 am. 3.7 mile
bike ride pm.
walking
Another toasty day in Paradise. We got up early to go for
another ride and to try to beat the heat we are facing again
today. I used the velcro from my old AFO to find a quick and
safe way to keep my heel in place and the foot on the
pedal... It worked :) I'm renting a 3wheel bike right now
for safety reasons but I'll be back riding my own soon, I'm
sure. Don't forget the Sunscreen folks and
if you got Mud, Play Dirty, Life's too short...
Sept 5 day 20 am. 5 mile bike
ride,
Met Matt who is a
Technical Service
Representative for Ossur North America
and a below knee amp, while
we were both riding through the local State Park ! Matt encouraged me
to attend the
Challenged Athletes Foundation event the end
of Oct to meet others who are facing similar challenges.
Hope it's good weather for kite flying too ;o) Thank you
Matt for the invite. It was pretty warm too 95
degrees ! a bit toasty for the coast to say the least but I
had a great time getting out and riding. I love the salty
air and ocean breezes... Gentle Winds everyone
Sept 4
Day 19
am. 2 mile walk not including stairs 1 hr
Sept 3 am. 1/2 hr ride
pm. 1/2 hr ride, lunges, steps, leg lifts
I did my PT at home after visiting with me mate from down
under this morning ;oP. The holiday is upon us
and the traffic I'm sure will be heavy with folks visiting
from out of town as So Cal is a popular destination. After
having lunch with my DH while he was on break, I got back on the exercise bike and went for another ride and
did leg exercises. The lunges I performed holding on to one
crutch and the back of the couch with the other hand. It worked out great and
I got a wonderful stretch ! ;o))) My good hip has been
giving me the what for with the strain, but it's getting better. Time to clean up and do some
reading... have a great day ;o)))
Sept 2
pm. walked local pier. lovely evening !!
OS check of incision went good. I'm to keep eye on wound and
continue doing the dressing change. DH printed images along
with the log of what I've been doing to show the OS, who was
very happy with how I've progressed in two weeks. CP agreed
with the OS and said though I was doing more than prescribed
it was hard to yell at me when I would email him pristine
images of the skin afterwards. LOL I see the CP in 3 weeks
and the OS in 5 weeks. So at this point I'm am cleared by
the CP and OS to proceed with caution and continue @ 50% WB,
bandage change and wound check. Should any problems arise
between now and next appointments I am to contact ASAP...
Onward and Upward ...
Sept 1 am. 20
stand/walk 25 min. bike ride
I have an OS check up in the morning. I'm sure he'll
be pleased with my progress as I'm adjusting and adapting. I try to find ways to make things simpler for others
and myself. It's not easy by any sense or description but I
have to make the best of what I've got. Doesn't mean I don't get sad or have times where I feel low
but I don't stay down for long. There is much to learn
and things I still want to do. I hope you have a rewarding and
productive day... blessings
Aug 31 am. 30 min
stand/balance (doing dishes & laundry) pm. groceries and
cook dinner 1.5hrs
wish I may wish I might wish upon
a star tonight. . . closing my eyes tightly...
Aug 30 am.
5.3 mile bike ride 55 mins.
Aug 29 am. 1.75 miles
1hr4min. along shoreline
Had a great walk this morning along the
shoreline, with a chance meeting of another BKA who I'm
pictured with in the gallery. He's been an amp since 1969 and
is an avid bike rider. Got me smiling knowing I will be able
to ride. What can I say, I enjoy riding. I warned my CP the
hard part is going to be holding me back once I'm cut loose.
lol I think that is why the incision has taken so long
to close. Just a way of life slowing you down... Yes, I still
have an open wound gang. like I said it's closing SLOW !!!
Aug 28
am. 1.65 miles 55min
I still have an open incision though small. It scabs over then
when I do PT it gets knocked back off. It takes longer because
of it. I just can't believe it's taking this long !! It's been
3 months since the amputation... Things I can do:
dishes, cooking is done with assistance of a stool, I can also
do laundry, gardening and other chores, with the years of
strain on my right hip has taken, I still find ways...
;o) I'm am only cleared to do 50% PWB w/crutches
for 20 mins., twice a day. I'm progressing in duration and
distance that I can tolerate, but its going to take time to
build the callous needed. The body has a lot to adjust to. The
liner alone causes one perspire profusely for the first two
months and that is only 1 part of what I have to put on...
One step at a time. small and steady... blessings
Aug 27 am. 1 mile 35 min
pm. 35min balance
Aug 26 am. standing 35 min
pm. RW/SCOPe *adjustments/Chiro stairs 1 hr
Aug 25 am. 1/4 mi walk, 4 mi
bike ride 38 min.
Aug 24 am. fitting w/RW.
pm. day off (up since 3am!)
You read it right, I'm not doing a walk tonight. I've been up
since very early and don't feel it is a good idea. I'll opt
for safer exercises at home instead. I had some adjustments
made today to the entire rigging. The socket was windowed to
assist in targeting and addressing a pressure point, lowered
the height of socket in the back so it wouldn't hit when I
bend, removed excess material in front of and behind knee on
both liners and adjusted inward a little more. The
improvements will make a big help and will be making more
changes in the future. The incision is still closing... yes, I
know, it will be 3 months in two days since the surgery, but
it's NEARLY there !!! I'm not kidding.. LOL slow lil
bugger !!! I had a great check up with my GI Doc and
have been given the ok to reduce the dose of one and stop
another med !! We are both of the same thinking.
Medicine is an aid, not a cure all. Once we found the causes I
was able to address them and I've been off wheat/gluten a long
while. Keeping the log has helped greatly in seeing any
pattern of an attack. I'm off to rest it was a long
drive and I've been spoiled while
hubby was home and I let him chauffer me.. LOL I hope he's
not gotten too comfy driving my truck because I'm back in the
saddle again ;o) ... prayers an blessings
Aug 23 am. walk balance 45 min. pm. Dr. and grocery
store 2 hrs
Aug 22 am. 1 mi. walk 40 min. pm. 3 mi. bike ride
Day 6
Aug 21 am. 1/2 mile walk on local Pier Day 5
Aug 20 a.m. day 4, balance and standing 35 min p.m. 20min
steps w/walking
Aug 19
Third day with the new device and things are moving along. No
skin problems and the incision is continuing to close, only a little soreness in the shin area. I have nothing to
compare this or the rehab I'm going through this time, and
no two amps are alike. I walked at the shoreline again today
with one exception. I walked all the way to the shoreline
through the sand totaling 1/3 mile... I told my DH that I thought there would be
possibility at some point I'm sure that I would cry when I got
my leg. I in turn mentioned it to my CP just in case, ya know
I'm sure he's seen tears before but it's not common place for
me, especially in a clinical situation. I was right that I
would cry but not the timing of when. I felt tears slip from
my eyes this morning when I walked along the water at the
beach near my home. Yes, I have pictures and will post them.
Now I knew people
would stare and I'm not one to hide my leg when in public so
it's going to happen. Well after the walk and delivering a few
thank you notes to the Mortuary who handled the cremation of
my foot, and my PMD for his handling of the paperwork and
saving us 1000.00s of dollars !! Anyway we were in the local
mall to stop and see about a couple sport tops for me to walk
in and a little girl couldn't keep herself from staring. Ok,
that's going to happen but the problem is she was walking and
staring, not watching where she was going and before I caught
on and warned her to watch out it was too late !! she walked
smack dab face first right into one of the store signs !!! I
felt so bad for her, I asked my DH why it couldn't of been an
adult, kids can't help being curious but some adults are just
RUDE !! It's been beneficial for me to hold off doing
much computer work. I miss the emails, chat, music and
graphics but I have a full plate and remain realistic about my
physical limitations... But I sure do miss everyone, the fun
and the artwork !! I know as I get stronger that I'll get back
to more of the computer things I enjoy too. So, as you
read I have had a very full day !! DH bid a route as cover
driver this school year but it has a few scheduling twists.
Nothing new. LOL the child may have a new job at a National
Video Retail Chain. Lets face it if you know her you'd know
this is right up her alley. Seems all those musicals, old
black and white classics along with the Biblical stories I
raised her rubbed off more ways than we realized.
Hugs, Love and healing blessings
Aug 18
PT a.m. day 2, 1/4 mile 32 min (see gallery)
p.m. side step and back steps 15min
Aug 17
I slipped
on the liners and socket to walk at home for the first time,
with the assistance of crutches as instructed. I walked in the
bathroom ;o), down a step into the living room, up another
step to my kitchen. I think handled the shock of how my
kitchen looked with grace (I had to tease my DH, bless his
heart. He's only 1 person I remind him) I then turned around
and went back the way I came and out the front door to the
patio, then proceeded up 4 steps through the gate to my truck.
I then went back down the 4 steps and did a few laps around
the patio and living room completing my 25 min. walk. I
called PT this afternoon and he said," Call back when you can
WB 100% and to keep doing what I am at home". hmmm With that I
got up and did my 2nd walk of the day. I put my gear on which
takes about 5 min, walked up the 4 steps to the truck, got in,
drove down to the beach and went for my first outdoor walk. I
did the same walk I did after I was cleared from my ankle
fusion. I had hubby measure and it turns out it is 1/3 mile !!
I hopped in the truck, slipped the foot off and gave my leg
and liner a rinse and dry before I headed home.
Baby steps !! In many ways and not just the size of those
steps, but the rate and duration of those steps too. Don't
bite off more than you can chew and set realistic goals. Baby
Steps Indeed
I'm considering a benefit in Oct, a
5k walk for MADD...
I completed a first today, and I know there are going to
continue to be many more. blessings
Aug 13
I had a fitting yesterday and took my first steps with the aid
of parallel bars for balance and support. I varied weight
bearing from 0 to 100% on my left side and did pretty good.
After adjusting and positioning of the lower portion, he then
took another cast for a new socket which I am scheduled for
fitting and possibly have a leg to take home on Monday !!
Other than the shin bone hurt the socket fit pretty good, but
I don't have anything to compare it to either. I'm sure the
new one will be better since it is a more recent cast which
will reflect any changes. The incision is still closing, but
weight bearing didn't affect it adversely if anything it
helped from how it looked this morning. I've already been out
for my mile wheel at the mall and had breakfast this morning.
Things are going pretty smoothly. Life has changed of coarse
losing a limb, but I've found that overall I feel much better
now. Sustained energy, better focus and more Myself. The pain
I was living in had a far more deep reaching affect on me than
I was aware of until I took this final step. I put off
amputation of my leg because I felt I could do a better job
raising my daughter with the situation we were in 16 yrs ago.
There were tradeoffs now I wasn't aware of but I wouldn't
change things either. It cost me my Art and the level of
expression through my work, which has since returned.
Thankfully. Life is a challenge no matter what I face but at
least now it won't be strained, controlled and limited by
anguishing pain in the same way. I was discussing with my DH
that overall, with the exception of some things I can
currently participate in the hobbies I've enjoyed before. Remember, I've
been living disabled at one level or another for a long time
now. I don't let anything hold me back from doing kite flying,
gardening, target shooting or anything else for that matter.
Freedom comes in many forms. Mine came in knowing when to let
go of my foot, not in keeping it. blessings
Aug 9
I spent the morning outside working on my plants and trees
today. They needed attention something terrible as it's been
over two months since I could really get out and tend to them.
I got my wheel chair and it's made some things much easier.
Like wheeling at the beach having a great time with DH. We've
been going at least twice a day while he is off work and
taking the dog along when he is up to it. On Saturday, I went
for a wheel with DH in the morning at the beach near home,
then we flew kites, I from my chair at the Bay in San Diego.
It seems that the work outs are having an opposite affect on
me than expected, I just want to 'go, go, go' where as I
thought they would wear me out. LOL My Child has
turned 21 recently, but has not a clue what to do or what they
want to do with them self, nor exhibits any motivation . . .
You can give and do all you can, but in the end it's got to
come from within. It's hard for me to watch, I know how
fast things can change in the blink of an eye and it's all
gone, changed. Time is so short, I hope and pray she figures
it out. blessings and Enjoy the Day !
Aug 4
Afternoon all ;o) Beautiful day out here in So Cal with a fog
along the coast that took it's time burning through till late
morning. I had PT with Ed and it went very well, considering.
He briefly tested my strength, flexibility, stability of my
knee, plus skin integrity and gait on crutches. He said I'm in
very good shape and ready to walk ! One problem, No leg/foot.
I called the office to try to get in sooner to do my fitting
but not possible. I asked to see Tony and he won't be back
till the 12th. So, I will restart PT with Ed to learn to walk
once I have my leg in about 3 weeks, I guess. In the meantime
keep doing my home routine. I'm getting ready to add ankle
weight, starting with 3lbs. Ankle weights are great because
they secure around knee easily with velcro. Some you can
customize with packets added to secured pockets to vary the
weight. Well I'm off to wheel the grocery store, exercise
before dinner. blessings and sunshine
Aug 3
Hiddy ho there good neighbor ! I had a great check up with the
Os this morning ! Spike is closed over and no more oozing, the
other wound is closing fine and looks great he said. Plus I'm
off antibiotics.. YEAH (been off pain meds a while too)! We discussed exercises I'm doing at
home, wheeling, activities of daily living, leg desensitizing
all in preparation of upcoming prosthetic fitting, as well as Physical Therapy
starting tomorrow. He feels all is going well and that I am
good to start limited load bearing with crutches as long as I
have no pain or skin/incision problems then progress slowly!!! Now, I was scheduled for my
next fitting on the 12th with Tony because RW was going to be
out of town (RW set this all up and sent me the info), but I
get a call from the Office that I was scheduled TODAY, and
this guy is the CO FOUNDER of the Co. w/30 yrs experience that
was to fit me !!! ARGH !! I double checked the email RW sent
with date and time...RW GOOFED BAD !! What does this mean?
It's going to be ANOTHER 3 weeks at least before I have my leg
now !!!! can I scream yet??
Aug 2
Good Morning, I did home
pt, got dressed and had honeydew melon for breakfast with a
glass of apple juice. I'm so restless today!!! Since I have my
new wheelchair I went to the mall before it opened to get in a
few laps. I did 1 mile at a steady pace then drove home along
the coastline. I was a little tired when we got home from the
roll but still felt restless, must be the moon ... LOL So
after lunch, out I went yet again, up four stairs to my truck
to go find my new PT office before my appointment Wed morning,
then drove back home along the coastline stopping at beach
road for a while this time. Sure is nice out today!! I'm
feeling better and not so restless now that I'm home. Yeah...
I just needed OUT is all. I have an Os appointment at 9am
tomorrow in San Diego. Spike is scabbed over and the other
area is still closing, doing wet to dry dressing
changes. I'm off all pain meds and doing very well. I have my
next leg fitting Aug 12 and hope to have my leg to take home
then or soon after. It's going to take about a year of
training to be able to 'get around' steadily. I'm just getting
started really. I have no problem with my 'body image' as far
as losing my leg goes. I feel good about myself and accept my
situation as it is. I don't care for the alternative, after
all, I could of died in that wreck !
Do yourself a favor if you have surgery... Insist that the
SURGEON sews you up !!! blessings all
Aug 1
I've been doing PT at home, nursing the still healing incision
and spending time with my DH while he is on break before
school starts. He's not sure what type of route he'll take
this year. He is considering a disabled kids route as he likes
to rotate from year to year. So far the State law that helps
protect his job has not been repealed and that will remain to
be seen. I've been spending very little time on the computer
giving myself time to heal. I've been spending time in prayer
and sharing and supporting friends via email/land line. I'm
just trying to get my bearings and have to be responsible
about my bodies limitations. What I'm trying to say is, that
being on the computer can add to the strain on my arms. With
being on crutches the condition in my neck and shoulders is
aggravated that much faster. So I have to choose. And if being
online goofing off means I can't do an errand or make it out
for an appointment because I wore them out playing around...
well to me that's not realistic... So for a bit I will post
depending on what the needs of my body and situations dictate.
Im sure you can understand to a point.
July 21
Hiddy Ho there neighbors !! lol What can I say other than I
hit a wall and needed to regroup for a while so didn't post
for a bit. . That fall was one of the worst I've ever had and
it took the wind out of my kite sail for a bit. Getting out
and finding my comfort zone again was important and took time.
I've been having my husband take me for a drive along the
coast, going on errands or to have breakfast at our lil place.
We tease the cook the only reason eat there is to harass him,
but actually it's the best food next to homemade and like
family in the best sense of the word...The time with my DH has
been good for us both and given me time to catch my breath and
let him do the driving for a change. I felt bad that my
incision has taken as long as it has to heal. By now Id like
to of been able to go swimming and be free from meds and
dressing changes, but things don't work that way sometimes.
The bruising is gone as is the majority of the pain now from
the fall. I've been able to get my shrinker on since
Sunday but have to be careful. The wounds are still closing
too. The one is about the size of a pee wee marble and just as
deep. The tunnel, Spike is still there and still draining. I
had to twist the gauze strip to insert it and is now too small
and painful to continue packing. Even though the diameter of
the hole is closing the depth of the tunnel has not changed.
We'll have to see what happens. I'm on Keflex and Cipro 15
more days and have a follow up with the Os on Aug. 3, with a
possible fitting for the 12th. Time will tell. blessings all
July 15
Good Morning ! I had another check for the incision and the
recent hematoma from my fall with the Os today. I am to
keep packing Spike (the tunnel) for drainage as best able, but
the narrowing of hole does make painfully difficult. (I can
still pack in two inches, it's the diameter of the hole that
is making it hard) The surface wound is getting there and I
would venture it may even be closed by my next appointment.
I was told to keep taking Keflex and Cipro and wanted a re
check in 2 weeks but since he's going to be gone (Os). 3 weeks
is my next Wound and hematoma check. By then my meds will be
gone. I guess we'll see what happens then, won't we?
Unexpectedly, I had my first fitting in my new leg today ! I
wasn't very excited with the pain I was in. The form went on
fine, it was the liner that hurt really bad. Got it on though,
I'm starting to think
I'm too tough for my own good. My leg is so sore I
couldn't lift the thing and it felt pretty heavy. The CP
will be out of town so I don't know who will do my next
fitting but he said he had someone to cover. It seemed to slip
his mind he was leaving for 3 weeks, to get married no less.
Not like it's any of my business though, right... I
wasn't feeling very encouraged today... I'm not looking ahead, just doing what I can as
best I can with today. I'll let the rest work it self out in
due time I'll know what I have to do as it comes. It sure
would be nice to sit in a hot steaming bath though. ahhh the
simple things
Say a prayer for the CPO, he's getting
married !! Congrats and blessings
July 13
I slept with the leg ace wrapped and elevated on a pillow last
night and on my left forearm I've got a nice bruise coming up.
It's where the crutch jammed against my forearm when it went
out from under me. Thank God for experience and fast thinking.
I can't imagine hitting my stump straight on ! I was in
the forward swing of the stride when the crutch went out and
it pitched me forward and to the left. Most times I can
catch myself before going down, not this time... With
measuring last night my stump was 17 1/4 inches around, this
morning it is down to 16 3/4. Good sign... I'm icing it and
able to crutch around the house ok with out pain. One other
time I fell like this and it took me a bit to get the crutches
back under me with confidence. I'm up and on them and not
going to let fear of falling stop me. healing
blessings and prayers ... Elle
July 12
Ok, I am going to say this once, make it very clear and say it
loudly ... UNCLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GIVE I GIVE !!!
I had a great morning, headed south in the fog along the coast
as it burned off this morning to get adjusted finally after I
fell on July 4th. I was so tight in my neck he sent me
home with a heat pack to roll up and put behind my neck to
further release the tension. I didn't feel that kite flying
was a good idea as it is taxing on the arms, especially seated
as I have to be right now. So instead we went to a lil Mexican
food place I know of in La Jolla that is gluten free and great
eats. Placed my order, turned around and headed back to
the truck. I was on the small river rock type stone walk, got
to the edge and the next thing I knew, One crutch went one way
and DOWN I went before I knew what happened. I barely had time
to tuck and yep, you got it, I NAILED the front of my
stump on the shin !!! After laying there for a
while, (yes, I cried, screamed and yelled) I got myself
together, got back up with hubby's assistance, crutched back
to the truck and got in. He went back and got our order that
was ready and I called my OS. We were just around the corner
from his office and thought best of being checked over as I
knew I hit hard. In the 16 yrs I've been on crutches and with
the numerous falls I've taken, this one was in the top
5. for sure. We spent 3 hrs in Urgent care waiting to
get the wound checked and make sure I didn't bust anything. I
swelled so much I had to take the compression sock off as it
was cutting off circulation more than it was helping.
The wounds held except a small part that was newly closed of
the big wound and the nub was A. ok. They sent me down
to Ortho and Botte had just gotten out of surgery so Manny
caught him in the hallway in passing and grabbed him. We phoned
the CPO to let
him know what was going on since I was due for a fitting ! So, I WAS off pain meds but have taken
two since noon.
I go back for my regular scheduled appointment this Thursday
and the fitting is on hold possibly till I'm not so swollen. I
have a huge knot on my shin right now ... time to try to eat
something and take my antibiotics.. blessings all
July 10
Lab results from Monday showed nothing
definitive ! Well the fluid sure looked funky to me and the
Doc plus the labs from Os came back positive. Who knows..
All I know is I got Spike living in my leg and the
other hole is 1/2 way closed now... Follow up with Os 7/15 and
delay first fitting until Os clears for minimal weight bearing
to test the fit of my new leg. Today I'm having my DH drive me
around to get out for a while.
July 9
I feel UGH today... The Cipro combined with the Keflex is
getting to me a bit, But, it's Friday, I'm GLAD to be ALIVE !!
the Sun is out and the birds are singing around the bird
feeders. I've got a soft place to rest and a way to stay
connected. Thank you for my Blessings !!! The cultures are done from Monday but the lab hasn't
released the results, later today they said. The urn for my leg along
with the engraved plate arrived yesterday. One one side
of the brass box will
read Shoe Box, one the other side will read Elle's left leg
June 28, 2004.
Hubby said knowing me, that if I got a phantom itch I'd probably make him
go scratch the box for me ! the NUT... blessings
July 8
I'm seasoned when it comes to having to wounds but this morning my stomach turned. YUCK! HEY NURSE !!! lol
following is a post from my dear friend:
Elle u amaze me u never give up or in , always fight , One in
all in u say. If u hit a wall u don't go round it , u BREAK IT
& Break it hard n fast. You give the strength for other to
carry on. To get up & give it a go. So i say thank u so very
much for just being you Elle. much blessings n prayers
AKA Clownie
p.s have ya given the tape worm a NAME YET ? lol Yes, btw, It's SPIKE
July 6
I called the Os
with info on the incision, I was told they had an appointment scheduled to
see him and I had 1 hr to get there!! (on a good day with no
traffic problems it's 45 min.) Upon further evaluation
of the hole, it goes in at least 2 inches. That is how far the sterile qtip went
in when the Os pushed !!! I have a new type
of dressing to do with a strip gauze and sterile qtip to push in to fill up
the hole... it looks
like my stump has a tape worm !! lol The wicking is to help
draw out any fluid that might collect as it closes.
He took cultures and will call with further instructions or
meds depending on what the labs show. The one from the Urgent Care yesterday or the
Os today and they will be compared... btw. no! packing does NOT feel good.
The
bigger wound is healing well he said and to keep doing wet to dry
dressing changes 3x
a day on that one.
I'm on
Cipro and Keflex unless the lab work shows what I have is
resistant and he suggested increasing Vit. C. I go back to the
Os if there are any problems before or July 15, my next
scheduled appointment.. I have been in touch with R.W. through
this whole process and I am scheduled for my first fitting
with him on July 12th! Pending no further complications of
coarse. I'm tired and I'm going to keep fighting
this, not to worry...
blessings and hugs
July 5
I was up early and ready to go this morning. I was on a
mission and I wasn't stopping until I got this wound cultured
and my mind/spirit/gut put at ease. It's just taking too long
for the nub to close. And I know, I know, things take time.
But, I know my body... something isn't right. And I was
sadly correct, the drainage clearly showed something this
morning. He said the big wound needed debridement. The Doc at
the Urgent Care was
sure enough of what he saw that he put me on Cipro and I am to
continue the Keflex. He is going to fax the info/results of
visit I had with him today to my OS, along with the labs which
will be completed in 3 days. My Os office is closed today as
was my Primary, and the Os next clinic is Thursday. I didn't
want to wait any longer.
Im just trying to
figure out how to kick myself for not pushing the Os to
culture it last week...any suggestions? LOL
I'm
so frustrated though, I had to cry. I mean come on! I'm not an
IDIOT.. I wish he would of trusted ME !
I'll let you know what I find out... Thank you for keeping me
in your prayers I greatly appreciate them. blessings
July 4
I fell
down and went BOOM! I was in my bedroom just before lunch
doing a little cleaning up and when I went to reach and turn
to set something down when I lost my balance, I bobbled a bit
and almost righted myself then down I went ! From instinct of
having an injured leg for so long, I automatically move to
tuck my leg under/out of the way. I did land pretty hard but
the wound held. I'm going to have the drainage from the hole
tested. I would prefer to, especially with as long as it's
taking to close.
last night about 9:30 our dog was excited like there was
something in our driveway so hubby went to check. Turns out a
baby skunk had come through the gate, down the steps and the
dog was messing with it so it hid by my water fountain which
he can't get to! Right here on the lower patio !! The hubby
spotted it as it waddled back up the stairs as we kept the dog
inside. We had one bad event with a skunk and have NO interest
in repeating it. I see a piece of chicken wire going up on
that gate ! LOL
We're celebrating our Nation's birthday at home and enjoying
the fireworks display our
City puts on from the Pier. Great View ! We'll have the Web
cam up and at this point it's clear !!
Have a safe, sane 4th of July, blessings from Morgan's Cove
July 1
I was off to the Os for check of the wound and meet with R.W.
this morning at 7:30am. I am to continue the Keflex until gone
which is about 2 weeks more, do wet to dry dressing changes 3x
a day instead of two and call if any problems. The lil nerve
endings are not liking the wet to dry changes. It's 1 inch
long and 1/2 inch wide. Then there is the nub on the very end
with the tiniest of holes evident. The Os stated that the
casting would be benign and we were free to proceed as needed.
So, that all said, the CPO arrived and began the process
of taking a mold of my leg and making needed measurements. It
will take about two weeks time to fabricate my new leg. My
stump has shrunk another 1/8 inch in size since last week.
That's a good thing and will continue to shrink for up to the
next year. At that time I may need to be re cast for a
new leg in order that it will continue to fit properly. I am
sore from the dressing changes but the pain should be resolved
once it is closed. We have No big plans for the 4th. I hope to
fly a kite a couple times, get out a bit and just relax.
We will have the web cam pointed so you will be able to see
our local fireworks !!
Today
another circle has been completed. Upon arriving home I
learned
my
husband picked up my ashes/leg from the Mortuary.
June 29
Good Morning World ! The wound is
closing, slowly. It's half way closed compared to where it was
last week and the hole is miniscule now. Yes, I'm still on Keflex. I have a check up with the OS 7/1 for the wound.
The CPO is going to meet me there but not sure about taking the
casting. The casting is necessary to make the mold for
fabricating my new leg. I went to the Chiropractor with
the family yesterday and we all got adjusted. Phew those
stairs can be a bear!! I don't like going UP stairs on
crutches, I can do it, and do it often, but I don't like it!!
June 27
Yep, that's me getting air !! I'm using a camping stool for my
leg.
It felt great to fly but the winds sure were flighty . One
minute would
be great the next the kite would literally fall out of the sky
for lack of wind!
Hubby and I had a wonderful time flying together.
Have a great weekend ! blessings
June 24
Just back
from the Surgeon,
I'm instructed to do wet to dry dressing changes x2 a day
(another approach)
keflex x4 a day (plus 1 refill, been on it 4 weeks) RTC in 1
week or sooner if changes.
My CPO was there as well and agrees it best to postpone
casting at this time till I heal further.
Not sure if you know what wet to dry dressing changes are but,
yes, I'll be on pain meds a lil longer and you'll see why. I'm
on 2-3 tabs of 500mg Vic a day. Take sterile 2x2 and
'wet' with saline solution. place 2x2 in hole and over 1 inch
area that is also not closed right. Place a dry 4x4 over the
'wet' and tape in place with hypoallergenic stuff that is
supposed to not cause my skin to come off or allergic
response. (they gave me all supplies) When you do the dressing
change: the wet bandage is now dry and you pull out all the
ick with the bandage, throw it away and go through the process
all over again. 2x a day till it closes. Yes, it hurts.
I can't be casted for my foot/leg until this closes.
Thank you for your prayers and support and blessings with you
June 20
There were a couple
stitches that were rather angry looking before they were
removed. Those have resolved but I've got a place on the end
where it is taking its sweet time
closing!!! Overall, the majority is completely healed over.
I'm keeping it clean with sterile dressings and taking Keflex.
Not to worry, I've had plenty of experience and plan on making
a trip to lab/PMD for workup. I am in a shrinker sock
except when changing dressings (3x a day). I have a larger one
I wear at night but it's important to keep compression on.
The arrangements were made prior so that my foot/leg was
delivered to a local mortuary Friday. I went down and selected
an urn today. I saw a snazzy lil brass box that could be
engraved with 'The Shoe Box'
We decided to take a drive up the coast through Laguna Beach
to Newport Beach and around Balboa Island. Even though it's
June Gloom here it was a great afternoon. We
took our lunch and went down to Dana Point harbor. While there we
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